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tomorrow's my birthday!!!!!!!!! HURRAY FOR ME!!!!
Spaghetti and meatballs (my favorite!) for dinner, and lemonade, and caesar (sp???) salad, and icecream cake! with chocolate chip cookie dough and phish food icecream! YAY for Ben and Jerrys!!! And lots and lots and lots of MONEY from my wonderfully giving relatives... :-D.
So I've spent the evening starting my biology extra credit crap and watching "The Bachelor: Special Edition"...god the bachelor's hot...lol. And tomorrow I'm turning 14! YAY yay yay yay!!! :-D :-D :-D.
It's not like anything incredibly exciting is happening, i mean i don't get a party or anything, but it's a birthday and they only come once a year and...they're just nice :-). Wow. I should get some sleep. So goodnight! But! WAIT! a quote...
Don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens - the main thing about life is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away. ~ John Steinbeck
~~Always~-*Teresa, Tess, the almost-birthday girl ;-)*
;-D
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Teresa at 11:24 PM
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this is kinda scaring me. why do i ALWAYS get inspired when i'm exhausted? hrm. let's think on it.
meanwhile...the hiking trip got rescheduled. again. and this time it's "temporarily on hold". HURRAY!!!!!! :-D :-D
my 7th Heaven rerun never came. Because I'm stupid, and I forgot that it's not a weekday. God i'm in SUCH a bad mood. Talked to Laur and Greg on the phone...fun fun...today's Greg's bday. Happy Birthday...
one day till mine :-)
Ever get the feeling you're dreaming even though you're not? Not like too good to be true, and not like being high ;-), but like you feel so removed from everything that's happening around you? Yeah. Well, I do. Like the whole world is just one big incoherent mess. And part of me knows I should just go to bed because it's 12-something in the morning and there's really no good reason to stay up; but the other part is so removed, so distanced, and just wants to stay up and watch some MTV show (what show? I don't know. I've been watching for the last hour, and I don't know. Problems? Yes.). Ahhh. Maybe this isn't a deep revelation though! MAYBE it's just the cappucino chocolate chunk icecream. Or maybe my little sister put drugs in my pepperoni pizza. Or maybe my brother spiked my lemonade. Yes, that must be it.
I know what you're all thinking. So don't even bother telling me.
ANYWAAAAAAY.... church tomorrow. Religion is hard. Faith is hard. Especially because, ya know, less and less and less people are religious nowadays, and since I never went to Catholic school, I'm kinda out of the whole "Catholic friends" loop- I mean I've got em but not a lot, not a lot of super-close ones...and it's hard with all the everyday tough shit, and all the strictness of the Catholic church, and ya know my grandparents got mad at me the other day cuz of my pro-choice stand...but anyway. The point is. Church tomorrow. Which means I REALLY should go to bed.
Ah well.
MY HOUSE IS SO COLD.
anyway.
Nothing to say. Should I shut up? Don't answer that. Goodnight. But first...yes! You're SOOOOO intelligent! How'd you guess???? A QUOTE!!!! :-D The new poetry book says...
The poplar lanes move on/but leave their reflection//The poplar lanes move on/but leave us the wind.//The wind lies shrouded/full length beneath the sky.//But floating on the rivers/has left its echoes.//The world of fireflies/has invaded my memories.//And a tiny little heart/is sprouting at my fingertips. - "Prelude", Federico Garci`a Lorca
And in Spanish, for the few who care...(are there ANY? :-) ) The rhythm is better at any rate. And Spanish is so much of a prettier language...
Las alamedas se van,/pero dejan su reflejo.//Las alamedas se van,/pero nos dejan el viento.//El viento esta` amortajado/a lo largo bajo el cielo.//Pero ha dejado flotando/sobre los ri`os, sus ecos.//El mundo de las lucie`rnagas/ha invadido mis recuerdos.//Y un corazo`n diminuto/me va brotando en los dedos.
Goodnight! You know I LOVE you guys! :-)
~~Always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 12:40 AM
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wSaturday, December 28, 2002 |
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blah blah blah. Hiking trip got rescheduled to tomorrow. Joy. Got in a huge fight with my mom earlier today...*fun fun fun!*...spent four hours moping around in my room. Ugh. Finally decided to come out around 4, went to the park with Gabby...who was being an IDIOT and decided to wear flip-flops in the middle of winter...so about 5 mins after we get there she starts crying cuz her feet are cold...naw, ya think? and she thinks they're gonna fall off, so she makes us run home...yeah. It sucked. Had pizza for dinner, now I'm just waiting for the 7th Heaven rerun to come on Fox Family...babysitting for Gabby and Chad (Mom and Dad are seeing...Gangs of New York? Maybe?). Break is going by REALLY fast! Two days till my birthday!!!! I picked out the cake yesterday: Ben & Jerry's, icecream cake, chocolate chip cookie dough and phish food icecreams, brownies and caramel on top...yay for me! "The big 1-4" :-D :-D :-D
So that's it, there's nothing more to say, my house is FREEZING COLD, I'll go turn up the heat. The end. A quote! :-)
I don't need nobody/ I don't need the weight of words/ to crash on thru/ I don't need nobody/ I just need to learn the depth or doubt of faith/ to fall into- "Needs", Collective Soul
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Teresa at 6:48 PM
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wFriday, December 27, 2002 |
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It's weird, isn't it? There's all this build-up for Christmas, stores and shops and people and everything, and then *bang!* in a day! Christmas Day! Yay...but then it's over. And even though I just get all psyched up for my bday (while we're on the subject...THREE DAYS!) it's still weird. It leaves you feeling kind of...empty. :-p And now break's going by so fast! And I'm procrastinating like crazy...promised myself I'd do some work on ELP extra credit or Cobra today, and ended up spending the day shopping (new sweater!), and on the computer, and seeing "Catch Me If You Can" with Jill and Dasha and Christie (great movie, btw, kinda incoherent, but good). Which was all FUN STUFF! But every night before I go to bed I just think...Oh God! Before I know it, break'll be over, and there'll be Cobra and exams and so much SHIT to worry about...ack. Ugh. :-p
So...although it's over now...Christmas was GREAT! My mom loved the socks and Gap scent that DD and I picked out; my brother was happy with his action figures; Gabby really like the soccer ball wall clip I got her; and Dad told me exactly what he wanted already, so that went well. And how did I feel about my presents? Pretty good. Three books (one of bilingual poetry; Spanish on one side of the page, English on the other- I really like that...), three cds (Justin Timberlake, Collective Soul, and one with poetry readings on it...), money, visa giftcard, bag from Old Navy, sweater (that I exchanged), hat and scarf (that I returned for $50 :-) ), cami (i needed one!), and, just about my favorite...PJ pants!!! YAY!!! Light blue (of COURSE :-)_) from Old Navy (YAY!) with little reindeer iceskating on them. Awwww. :-).
Talked to Nancy on Christmas Day...good lord I miss that girl! Talked to Priya today, she's definitely coming to Myers next year! (Yay!)...My mom got this video for Christmas from her sister, Calle 54 (calle is street in spanish), it's a documentary about the evolution of and greatest artists in Latin jazz. Which is definitely NOT exactly my type of movie, if you get my drift...i'm more of a Bourne Identity/Pearl Harbor type...lol...but she made us all watch it last night, and as I sit there dying of boredom while some random famous Hispanic toots away on his trumpet...it does kinda make me feel good to know that I AM lucky to be able to spend this kind of time w/ my family, and it's kinda cool to know that i'm prolly one of the only kids i know who would have to spend valuable break time watching this...it makes me proud of my heritage. Corny yet true.
Yeah. So that's it, I'm gonna go play Sims (yay! :-) another great xmas present!). I should prolly go to bed, cuz tomorrow the rents are taking us on a family hiking trip (*SOMEBODY, ANYBODY, SHOOT ME NOW !*) but what's the use in being intelligent when i can stay up and waste time and energy instead? :-) ;-)
a quote, from the new book...
Today she did not see the world as loose and cracked and turning a thousand miles an hour, so that the spinning views of war and distant lands made her mind dizzy. The world had never been so close to her. - The Member of the Wedding; by Carson McCullers
~~Always~- *Teresa, Tess...*
;-D
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Teresa at 11:37 PM
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wMonday, December 23, 2002 |
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So. I think I always get inspired really late at night. Well, not really late, but when I'm tired then. Yes. That's what I mean. And today I am here to talk to you about...Christmas. And the holiday season. Which also includes my birthday. And Greg's (Happy early bday!- the 29th...). So anyway. It is now officially Christmas Eve Eve Day. And it's weird, cuz usually i get SO excited for xmas, but this year, i'm just...not. I'm not sure y, maybe from thanksgiving coming so late, but i'm just not feeling the anticipation. i haven't even gotten motivated enough to wrap my sibs' presents yet, which is BIZARRE (moll!) cuz i'm usually one of those holiday spirit freaks who spends like 2 hours in early NOVEMBER wrapping EACH INDIVIDUAL christmas present while sitting by the fire and drinking hot chocolate and all that stuff; normally i just love the brightness of the whole season...but i guess what with getting older, thinking deeper, i've kind of managed to overanalyze xmas and take some of the excitement out of it. i suppose tomorrow i should spend some time, listening to xmas music..."the christmas song". Nat King Cole dueting with Natalie. Do i really have to say ANYTHING else??? and my birthday. it's so weird, having my bday FIVE days after christmas, you'd think i'd have gotten used to it by now but i don't. I really do wish I could move it, most of the time, i mean sure it's nice not to suffer from post-xmas depression but i know i'd be able to do something EXCITING for it this year 'cept 4 that the rents r still all stressed from xmas 5 days later. but i am gonna be 14. yay 4 me! :-) eventually, i'll catch up to the rest of the world...it's only a matter of time...
met up with jill at gabs and diana's soccer game today, it was fun even though they got demolished 9-2. but gabby scored twice, she may be an annoying perfect-at-everything-she-tries little sister but i'm still proud of her.
christie and i went to see "maid in manhattan" today. j.lo was great, hard not to get so jealous of that chick that you totally demolish the screen (*ha*) but it was a good movie. typical predictable beautiful chick flick. just what i needed...she came home afterward and we chilled (music, subway) till 9:30, she went hom, i watched some show on mtv (how do i manage to sit through an HOUR of a show and then not even remember what it was?) and then i got pissed at my mom for spending all her time with gabby. Gabs won the school spelling bee at Randolph, she always wins stuff like that, now she's going to county...so i go to sleep at night and DREAM about mom drilling her- 24/7!!! blah blah blah. i am so addicted to this new jennifer love hewitt song i found online "can i go now" GREAT SONG i really luv her as a musical artist...so i'm blabbing. and i'll stop, cuz i'm EXHAUSTED...and a quote. like, duh...!
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you're going to live. Now. ~Joan Baez
~~Always~-*Teresa, Tessa, Tess...and anything else you happen to think up...*
;-D
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Teresa at 12:02 AM
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wFriday, December 20, 2002 |
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Ok. Something occurs to me. I wonder if there's some kind of...online journal etiquette book that I should read? Because how often am I allowed to post in a day? hrm. haha.
So I'm back from family fun, and I called Christie but she's eating dinner (what? now food comes before ME?) ;-) and then i remembered that in the middle of ff today, when i was supposed to be taking my quiz, i wasn't. i was thinking about the future...now before I start, I know what you're thinking. Oh boy. Here goes Teresa on yet another SUPPOSEDLY profound conclusion about life that makes absolutely NO sense. But read this one. Seriously, it'll pay off.
Now. Back to the point. The FUTURE . So I'm sitting in ff, thinking about the future, and wondering where we're gonna be in 25 years. Not where i, MYSELF am going to be, but where WE, as a whole, the class of 2006, the people I care about RIGHT NOW, are going to be. Some of us have big dreams. And some of us share them with the whole world, others don't. And some of us don't have dreams at all. But will those of us without any big goals turn out to be the ones that end up the happiest? It often seems like our lives right now are measured by talent, and popularity, money, and grades...but that can't be what's REALLY important, can it? Some people seem to balance everything so perfectly, and seem to really understand what they're doing, but I'm just a big mess of confused goals and nonsensical ideas. I mean...Laur. Where will Laur be in 20 years? Will she be an astronaut? Will she be married? Will she be HAPPY? I know, somewhere deep inside, that happiness is not just a matter of shopping or school, or ANY of that, but what is it about? It seems like all my parents care about is college. Anything I want to do has to be justified by something I can put on my college resume. And I know that life DOESN'T end once I get accepted to Yale, or Stanford, or Princeton...I don't really care about college. Or clothes. Or grades. Or ANY OF THAT! I just want to be happy. I think that's what we all want. We just don't know how to get it...and like i said to SOMEONE on the phone once...(who was it?!) sometimes it seems like we're all just seeing who can pretend to be happiest the best. I don't know. I never know anything. :-) So there's my deep thought for the day. Can you smell the rubber burning? :-)
And a quote, of course...
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
from mollie's profile!
~~Always~-*Teresa, Tessa, Tess...*
:-)
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Ok, guys, so I figured out nice and early that winter break is probably going to be PRETTY boring. Yes, it's Christmas, and yes, it's my birthday, but for the other...*counts on fingers* 15 days (is that right??) I'm going to be bored out of my mind. I suppose I could always do the Cobra project, yes, I know, but what's the fun in a project if you don't do it the NIGHT before it's due?! :-) So I think to myself...hrm. What would spice up my break? And I come up with exactly three options: a) SHOPPING!!!!...but i'm broke. b) SMOKING!!!!...but there's a bit of risk involved, dontcha think? and c) making myself a little websitey thingie. Blog? I don't know. Oh well, it's fun already! :-)
So I come home from school and I start. And in the words of Lauren..."What're you gonna call it? My Pathetic Attempt at HTML?" Thanks Laur. I knew I could count on your support. Yeppers. But I screwed around with titles for a while, and then decided "so what? it's just a title" *hence the name!* and now, here I am. Making a beautiful little online diary thingie for all of you out there. Mwah! *Miss America wave!*
Today I had TWO (count em, two) important tests...I think teachers ENJOY torturing us with loads and loads of work right before the break. Ha. And for Antigone, I wrote the worst essay in the history of the world. Ha again. About how "life isn't hard". Original? yes. True? ummm...hrm...let's think about this....
I wish I could just sit back and relax this break, but I really can't. I know I said I'm gonna be bored, but I'm also gonna be busy! ELP extra credit (ugh), math work, bio CRAP *aka: Cobra project and lab and extra credit* and...well I know there's more, I'll get back to you on it :-). and EVERYBODY is going away, except for me. Yup. I'm staying at home, the whole damn time. Grrrrrr. And the STUPID 'rents won't even let me have a party, I want one SO MUCH.
But there's really nothing I can do, now is there? *sniff sniff*. Oh well. And I want to stay here and blab away on this stupid page that no one's gonna read anyway (c'mon now, prove me wrong...) for forever, but it's off for a haircut and family gatherings. Joy. (I know, I know, you can just HEAR the excitement)
So yeah. And of COURSE, I have to leave you with a quote...Laur says I mask myself behind quotes. hrm. Thoughts? email me (cuz varner hasn't shown me how to put a comments thingy up yet...) miamigirl1288@aol.com. I think there's a way to make that into a link, but I don't know how. Oh well. Sucks for you guys. Copy-paste, c'mon now, email me! :-)
It doesn't hurt to be optimistic. You can always cry later.~Lucimar Santos de Lima
~~Always~-*Teresa, Tess, Tessa, whatever makes you happy*
:-)
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Teresa at 4:21 PM
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