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Man, the past few hours have sucked.
My left eye is killing me for no apparent reason...my contact just started spazzing out in the middle of attorney training stuffness, and then it went from aching to burning to just plain HURTING. And now it's all bloodshot and super sore, ew. This has been a terriblehorriblenogoodverybad occurrence. Ow ow ow.
In other bitching news, I'm so sleepy. Man I want to go to bed. Math sucks so bad there aren't words. I think I know the stuff for the test, but I haven't even cracked the book open, and I need to.
Oh yeah, and I am massively pissed off at DD. Why not just say it, cause I'm gonna have to talk to her about it eventually. I spose we're just going through one of our "rough spots", but it's just really fucked. And I want to fix it, but I don't feel like it's my fault. Which is prolly just selfish bitchiness, so oh well.
At this point, I don't care.
Okay so I realize how ungrateful and awful this whole entry is, so please disregard. Thanks, kids.
Bye now.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Am I it or could you get more?
Today was just a day, but mostly full of smiles. Humanities was aight, and no quizzes, which saved my ass. Drama was cool (damn that bell, eh?). Gym, fine...long talks with Lauren and Christine. Oh yeah, and getting pegged in the stomach during handball. Fun stuff. Lunch, nickname time with Jamie. I loff. And Spanish, the usual : D...and actually doing well on the quiz, kickass!
Then it was Irish Club (better than math tutoring, right?) where I became the official Colombian of the club. And now, I'm stranded at the Observer till Teen Court at 6. And THEN it'll be back home.
Man, I am so tired.
Ah well, it's all good.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Miamigirl1288 (8:35:13 PM): homework makes me want to cry
mmmmvanillacoke (8:35:34 PM): me too
mmmmvanillacoke (8:35:39 PM): but im too lazy
~~always~-*teresa*
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My favorite New Yorker, after reading the list...
LilShellieZ02 (6:25:51 PM): u and claire
LilShellieZ02 (6:25:56 PM): must be the best 2 ppl
LilShellieZ02 (6:25:57 PM): in the world
~~always~-*teresa*
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The List
(as composed by tessie and claire elizabeth)
Okay, boys, here's your chance. Sick of being the bane of every female's existence? Tired of being SO DAMN UNSEXY? Teresa and Claire themselves have decided, out of the kindness of their hearts, to give their precious time to your cause. Yes, awkward and unsavory young gentlemen, we are here you soooolllve your problems! You have compiled the ultimate, the amazing, the list of how to solve all your dating problems and attract girls almost as well as you repel them now!
1. Wear cologne. All the freaking time.
It may be expensive. It may be annoying. You may even get funny looks because you smell so damn strong. But hey!- If you think you've got a naturally sexy scent, you're delusional.
2. Ditch the bowl cut.
You should have done it many, many years ago, and we know this.
3. Spice things up in the wardrobe department.
The blue t-shirt was really hot, the FIRST time you wore it, the first day of school. But around the third time that week, it just starts to look a little...dingy. Go easy on the eyes, for once.
Five shirts a week, that's all we ask.
4.For God's sake, shave.
For those of you in that post-puberty-just-now-growing-facial-hair-stage, it really doesn't matter how little there is; shave it. There's nothing in the world more disgusting than one random and alarmingly long hair right on your chin or something.
5. Give gifts.
You may be broke. You may be cheap. And, you may be idealistic and believe in the depth of an emotional connection. Hate to tell you, it's only as deep as your wallet. The way to a girl's heart is and always will be materialistic. So even if she's just a crush, don't be afraid to blow your life savings on her. If nothing else, the other girls will pity you and start flirting with you so THEY can get presents too. It's a basic principle of sex; we help you spread your genes, and you give us stuff.
6. Learn to kiss.
Contrary to popular belief, it is not desirable to a women to have a guy come at her with an open mouth. French kisses are supposed to evolve from normal ones (like ducks evolved from carrier pigeons-- it's the same principle), not start out that way. For more in-depth information on the subject, we can help you with that, too. Sometime, when you are feeling very secure about your masculinity, we can slip you a manila envelope full of seventeen magazines with features on such subjects.
7. Do something about it.
Feminism has hurt us in one aspect: now, some guys think we have an equal obligation to be the first to profess our love. This assumption is wrong. We can't give you a good reason, but it is. Making the first move is gentlemanly, right up there with holding doors. Oh yeah, and it takes the pressure off of us!
^made up this summer, and now recalled for posting usage : D
on another note...("This is Claire. This is Teresa. They died sad and tragic deaths due to extreme stupidity...")
cetgoddess (5:26:14 PM): what great taste
Miamigirl1288 (5:26:43 PM): hot damn we're idiots
~~always~-*teresa*
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And color the coast with your smile
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen...
--- (5:15:38 PM): but how valid is wishful thinking?
~~ (5:16:09 PM): maybe it's not
~~ (5:16:39 PM): but if that's the case, it proves that millions of love affairs that broke and made people's days, and hearts, and lives, were never really real
~~ (5:16:53 PM): so relish what you have, while it lasts, and while this slate is still clean enough.
--- (5:16:59 PM): amen *
*note: screennames changed to protect the desires of some to be protected, rawr.
~~always~-*teresa*
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It doesn't mean much
It doesn't mean anything at all...
The mall rocked, despite some crap that's really getting on my nerves. But everything's made wonderful if you add brownie Haagen Dazs (sp?) icecream and fantabulistic friends to it.
Then back home : D, dinner, and a movie with Mom.
I'm resisting the urge to quote myself.
Almost bedtime. Yum.
And sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all I have to give.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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That I would be good...
For some reason, I seriously like couldn't sleep last night, and I don't know why. This morning, Mass was the longest thing EVER. Felt like three hours.
Now, I'm working some stuff out (I think), and then trying to mooch money off the rents before heading off to the mall.
We'll see if that works out, which it very well may not, due to certain people's inability to answer the phone...and parents who refuse to drive me anywhere.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
This night, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted...and the diamonds now remain.
By the time I recognize this moment, this moment will be gone-
But I will bend the light, pretending that it somehow lingered on...
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever...
And it won't, cause it can't
It just can't
It's not supposed to.
Since 2:12 pm on Friday, September 26th, 2003, I:
- sat on my ass and watched VH1
- worked on my math project
- went through a frantic series of phone calls, with a great deal of beeping in, involving Steph, Laura, Lauren, and a woman from the Gaston County Animal Shelter.
- wasted more time on the phone, and posted on someone else's blog
- took a shower, and got out in the middle to call Deeds and remind her to bring her bathingsuit for Laura's
- went through another frantic series of phone calls, involving the Deedster's quest for a straightener
- wrote down some really messy directions to the East Meck band room
- danced around my room to Maroon5, in a towel
- greeted Lauren while barely dressed, hah
- figured out something to wear, and threw stuff into a sleepover bag
- sold Lauren a Reese's, and ate one of them myself
- cooked up corndogs and pasta for dinner, after scraping around in my empty fridge
- had a little room party with Steph, Deeds, and Lauren, and squirted lotion on the floor
- got in a nogoodverybad fight with my mom in the car on the way to east
- got lost trying to find the band room...like, entirely lost.
- discovered the incredible stupidity of East's ftbl game rules
- harassed Dan : D
- watched Jackson offer Dan's friend his number : )
- harassed Dan some more, while crowding four girls onto a three foot wide bench
- got a free Snickers, and made fun of people who can't eat pizza crust gracefully
- stole band trail mix stuff
- sat on the grass with Lauren and just...was, in clarity like a John Mayer song
- analyzed the left/rightness of hugs with Greg
- ran back to the MP side because HEY WE WON! : D
- checked out the football players (he's mine, stephy ; ) )
- delayed going to the car
- finally went to the car, and sang country as loud and off key as possible on the way to Harris Teeter
- stuffed stale sugar cookies in my mouth, and bought lots and lots of junk food : D
- recognized Freckles and Frisky!, and saw Laura's new room
- reminisced about Barringer and MGD days, thanks to the bulletin board
- went hot tubbing and had deep conversations, while considering the probability of one or more of my friends being raped, killed, or all of the above (valentine!)
- ate pizza while watching That's So Raven, and considering the extreme magnitude of loserness demonstrated by this
- got online, and loved Meggo
- talked on the phone for a couple of minutes, and called someone's home line at midnight (oops)
- got in trouble with Laura for bringing the mp drahmah with us, and stopped (along with Steph and Lauren)
- got ready for bed, and shared depressing stories with my favorite little shortness until 1 in the morning
- promptly fell straight asleep
- woke up at 9, to chocolate chip pancakes and the best friends a girl could ask for
- considered killing one of those friends, for various reasons
- came home, and slept (until 3!)
- woke up and took a walk with Joni Mitchell
- quoted John Mayer lyrics, and reflected on the extreme sexiness that is
- got dressed for Rosh Hashanah while missing CTY, and reminisced with Shella
- went to dinner, and contemplated murdering the most annoying 11 year old girl I've ever met
- watched a fantabulistic ABC family chick flick with some sweet 8th grade girls
- snuggled in a fleece blanket and listened to the rain
- came home to be grateful for my friends all over again
- considered kissing the stars for still shining
- tried to chop out the part of my mind that makes me think when i don't want to
- felt: stupid, because I am and can be, and grateful, because I have friends like Lauren and Laura and Deeds and Steph who make me feel not quite so dumb even when I am : D...I lessthanthree them like crazy, yo.
- began the process of getting my parents to give me some dinero for tomorrow's wonderful victoria's secret run with Lauren and Deeds and whoever else that wants to come
- made an insanely pointless list of 52 things I've done since Friday, September 26, 2003, at 2:12 pm
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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...Something in the way that
Blue lights on a black night
Can make you feel more.
People have the right to fly
And when it gets compromised
Their hearts say "Move along"
Their minds say "Gotcha heart"
Let's move it along
Let's move it along
And airports
See it all the time
With someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand a single rose
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And I won't be the last
No I won't be the last,
To love them.
And you can't build a house of leaves
And live like it's an evergreen
It's just a season thing
It's just this thing that seasons do
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And you won't be the first
No you won't be the first
To love me
You can find me, if you ever want to give
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around,
I'll be around
And if you never stop when you wave goodbye
You just might find if you give it time
You will wave hello again
You just might wave hello again
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
You can't love too much, one part of it
You can't love too much, one part of it...
I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give
Return to me
I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give
Return to me
I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give
Return to me
...and I won't be the last, and you won't be the first...
~John Mayer- Wheel
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 3:25 PM
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This is a momentary tribute to a way I used to be, and some thoughts I used to think, and a promise made by a mixed-up girl to a future self in a moment of warm sunsets and Michelle Branch and sand that squished between toes just to say- you are who you are, and all that's okay. And will be, now, forever, and in a day that you thought would bring you heartache because earlier you'd never imagined it could...well, this is a tribute to a way I used to be..
If I had known then that these things happened
Would they have happened with you?
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Contemplation, Placation, Reconsideration.
Lovation, Reunionization, Patien(ce).
~~always~-*teresa*
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******the basics****** I started this at: 7:15 pm, 09/25/03
1. Full name: Teresa Alexandra (Rose) Reed
2. Birthday: December 30, 1988
3. Location: Charlotte, NC
4. Where else have u lived: Miami, Florida
5. School/mascot/colors: Myers Park/ mustang/ green and..white, isn’t it?
6. Zodiac sign: Capricorn. Yum.
7. Shoe size: 8ish.
8. Height: 5’5. and almost, almost, almost 5’6
9. Weight: psh.
10. Pets: I had a fish, but it died. I had a hamster, but it died too. Consequently, I give up. Plus there’s that whole not-really-liking-animals thing. Gr (remembers math project).
11. Siblings: Gabriela Elizabeth, 11. Chad Joseph, 9.
12. Eye color: brown, sigh.
13. Hair color: yep, brown.
14. Hair length: i don’t know. pretty long, i mean below my shoulder by far…
15. Ever died your hair?: hah, nope, unless you count those spray painty things that last one shampoo.
16. What color?: ~
17. Grade: Sophomore, woot.
18.Are u good in school?: i spose.
19.Hobbies: writing and music and things along those lines, i suppose. and tons of community service, which at this point is actually sort of by choice. : P
20. Nicknames: Tess, Tessa, Tessie, and various other things along those lines…Princess Tessie Tura, thanks to the girls of CTY 03, Tess… something else, thanks to Yao, Butterfly and Tesscat, courtesy of Josh, and Alex, thanks to Ledyard.
21. What languages do you speak? english and un poco de espanol.
22. Do you play sports? psh, nah.
23. Where were you born? Miami, Florida, hence the screenname.
24. Are you a night or a morning person? night.
25. Are you ticklish? yeahh.
26. Do you believe in god? yes’m.
27. Do you have any other screen names?: two, but neither is in use, really.
28. What are they?: sweetpea0886, traumapronechica.
29. Do you have braces?: rawr, no. and i don’t wear my stupid retainer any more, either. : D
!!!!!!getting personal!!!!!!
31. What do you want to be when you grow up? an attorney, or something to that effect, and a writer on the side. Oh yeah, and a wife/mother.
32. What was the worst day of your life? not sure. there've been a few that stand out though.
33. What is your most embarrassing story? sorry, nothing juicy that i can think of.
34. What has been the best day of your life? mmm...there was this one Friday, last school year, the Friday of Lauren's bday party, that was just awesome. The best typical day, you know...other than that, who knows.
35. What comes first in your life? friends/family, yep.
36. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? yep : )
37. What are you most scared of?: bugs and rape.
38. If you had an extra set of eyes were would you put them? one on each shoulder. That would be kinda spayshall.
39. What do you usually think about before you go to bed? the good things about that day, or the next.
40. What do you regret the most? regrets are worthless. they misconstrue the past in sight and sound....that's the only thing i ever think of now, when asked the regret question.
41. If you could be anything without consequences, what would u be?: A starving street- I was gonna say artist, but then there's that whole can't draw/paint/sculpt/anything to that effect issue. So something in the way of a starving street writer person thing.
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42. Movie: Down With Love/ Serendipity.
43. Song: currently, Gavin DeGraw- Follow Through.
44. Band/group: I spose...Maroon 5, right now.
45. Store: express, i believe.
46. Relative: Abita...then, Aunt Liz, I think.
47. Sport: rawr. soccer, for Gabby and Chad's sakes.
48. Vacation spot: the cape, of course!
49. Ice cream flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough!, acourse.
50. Fruit: red grapes.
51. Candy: kitkats, generally.
52. Car: something I'll get to drive in...a year and three+ months.
53. Class: right now, either Humanities or Spanish, I believe.
54. Holiday: Thanksgiving, and Christmas (especially because of that whole five days after comes my birthday! thing)
55. Day of the week: damn, do you know...it SO used to be thursdays, but this year they suck. And wednesdays have gotten sooo good! Still prolly Fridays, though.
56. Color: pink : )
57. Magazine: ym or anything to that effect.
58. Name for a girl: I...actually, don't know right now.
59. Name for a boy: see #58.
60.Sports team: Braves, I spose, for Dad's sake.
61: Month: September and October...and December. Yum : ).
62. Man Athlete: my little brother. : )
63. Female Athlete: Gabby acourse!...with Dash and her tennis as a close second.
64. Actress: julia stiles does rock...
65. Actor: josh hartnett, and johnny depp.
66. TV Show: what i like about you.
67. Web site: my blog, perhaps? ; ) or one of my friends'...or quizilla, maybe.
68.Animal: pandas, yum.
69. E-mail Buddy: Steph...Nancy...camp people.
70. Joke: none that come to mind right now.
71. Saying: lately, just random 'rawr's.
72. Word: wonderfulous. I made it up this afternoon. : )
73. Brand of shoes: I used to be such a Nike girl. lately its usually express/ old navy flip-flops.
74. Radio station: walkman settings- 1: 95.1; 2: 96.1; 3: 102.9; 4: 96.9; 5: 107.9 . 107.9 is prolly the fave.
75. Room in your house: mine! : D...and the rec room, close second.
76. Concert you have been to: meh.
77. Cd: Maroon 5, right now...followed closely by Dashboard's Places you have come to fear the most, michelle branch's hotel paper, jason mraz's waiting for my rocket to come. speaking of which, someone realllly needs to burn me the new john mayer.
78. President: rawr. none, really...
79. Salad: yeah, Caesar.
80. Meat: chicken. mmm.
81. pizza topping: mushrooms, olives.
82.State: rawr, Florida I believe.
83. City: NYC, I do believe.
84.Lake: Why...Michigan!, just for the hell of it.
85. Ocean: Atlantic, fo sho.
86. Place to be: with people I <3.
87. Smell: St. Vincent's...lol, jk. Gotta go with Clairebear and say yummy smelling guys. : )
88. Sound: laughter, acourse.
89. Taste: icecream for breakfast. : D
90. Feeling: love. that feeling that everything is just fine because youve got all the people you care about and they care about you and...there's nothing else that's needed, ever.
91. College: Princeton is soooo pretty. Good gracious.
92. Number: 9, today.
93. Book: girl with a pearl earring. so awesome.
94. Vacation spot: cape cod, deja vu yo.
95. Grandma: All three (Abita, Grandma, Grandma Pat).
96. Grandpa: The only one I've met. (mom's side, that is)
97. Cereal: coooookie crunch...lucky charms! (cty memories, eh shella?)
*~*~not so favorite~*~*
98. Car: the ones i cant drive. oh WAIT THATS ALL OF THEM.
99. Color: some oranges, and neon greens.
100. Teacher: heath. ugh.
101. Class: chem, with math as a close second.
102. Day of the week and why: Sunday...maybe Thursday though, to be honest.
103. Holiday: I like em all just fine, thanks.
104. Season: none : ), really.
105. Month: january has a tendency to suck in big ways...as does August.
106. Sport: hockey, ew. and football, sometimes.
107. Sports team: the stupid ones?
108.Male athlete: psh.
109. Female athlete: Tara Lipinski, she stole that gold from Michelle in 98. Rawr.
110. Movie: Once Upon A Time In Mexico. that suuuucked, bigtime.
111. Actress: Brittany Murphy has a tendency to irritate the hell outta me.
112. Actor: None that come to mind.
113. T.V. Show: jackass.
114. Web site: er?
115. Food: veggies. mrehehe.
116. Drink: anything carbonated.
117. Band: something bad.
118. Male singer: er, something sucky.
119. Female singer: that person who sings that song...'angel', you know the one? ew.
120. Animal: bug. ew.
121. Store: guess. tooooo expensive, blarh.
123. E-mail buddy: if i didn't like emailing them, i dont think i would. Rawr.
124. Joke: ...
125. Saying: ...
126. Word: i know there're ones that irritate me, i just cant remember what they are.
127. Brand of shoes: ooh, keds, yeah. ew.
128. Radio station: 97.9
129. Room in your house: the downstairs bathroom. whenever someone goes down the stairs, it feels like the ceilings about to fall in on that place.
130. Concert you have been to: ...
131. Cd: i only like one song on the coyote ugly soundtrack, so maybe that.
132. President: the current. ugh.
133. Salad: one with no dressing at all.
134. Meat: ...
135. Pizza topping: anchovies? actually, i've never had them.
136. State: let's pick on...Wisconsin, shall we?
137. City: this one, some days.
138. Lake: Wylie. Hah.
139. Ocean: er...Antarctic. Haha.
140. Place to be: sad and alone, when put together.
141. Smell: a not good one?
142. Sound: nails on a blackboard, rawr. or, retching.
143. Taste: juicy fruit aftertaste when you've been chewing it for like six hours. and mints, when theyre just WAY TOO STRONG. and orange juice right after brushing your teeth. and ibuprofen/other pills, when they touch your tongue.
144. Feeling: jealousy, definitely. and being turned off due to psyching yourself out.
145. Letter: the ones i've never sent but should have.
146. Date: 1/17, and 4/19. rawr.
147. Book: red badge of courage, by stephen crane. thaxton's 8th grade english.
148. Vacation spot: ...how can a vacation spot be bad, exactly?
149. Grandma: ...
150. Grandpa: ...
151. Cereal: special K, ew.
^^^^^^in the past 24 hours have you^^^^^^
152. Had a serious talk? yes...with laura right now.
153. Hugged someone? course!
154. Fought with a friend? not really, except for a couple of random spats with the deeds.
155. Cried? no : )
156. Laughed? mmhmmm. : D
157. Made someone laugh? : ) all in a day's work, my friends!
158. Bought something? Reese's, from my drama fundraiser box. : D not on credit!, either.
159. Cut your hair? nope
160. Felt stupid? psh yes.
161 talked to someone you love? yep!
162. Missed someone? a bit, but not in a permanent way.
??????have you ever??????
163. Done drugs? no sir. : D
164. Eaten an entire box of Oreos? nah, but almost...using my personal favorite calorie-burning method, in which the box is located across the room in order to burn off the cookie while you go fetch it and walk across the room. Rawr.
166. Had someone be unfaithful to you? nope.
167. Watched punky Brewster? nope.
168. Hiked a mountain? uhhuh.
169. Stayed home on Saturday night, just because? hmm...prolly.
170. Been in love? puppy love, perhaps. but not real, true, full-fledged love, no sir.
171. Seen the white house. yep. 5th grade, sigh for the washington trip!, you barringer bees. : )
172. Seen the Eiffel tower? nope : (
173. Tried smoking? Nope. god, i'm so gooood!
174. Drank alcohol? whoops, strike that. ; )
175. Smoked marijuana? Nope.
176. Played monopoly? Course!
178. Seen titanic? : D of course. and it was my favorite movie for like two years...
179. Kissed someone? that would be a yes.
180. French kissed someone? uhhuuuh.
181. Lost your virginity? "have you ever...lost your virginity?" hah, nice phrasing. anyway, no.
182. Tried a weight loss program? not seriously.
183. Jumped on a trampoline? one of life's little pleasures :-D
184. Visited another country? just Canada.
185. Colored in a coloring book(and had fun)? fo sho!
186. Had a bubble bath? Actually, that's tentatively on the agenda for tonight.
187. Been on a plane? not for ages, but yes.
188. Been on a boat? mmhmm, the whale watch was the last time, i think.
189. Been on a train? actually...i dont think so!, how bout that.
190. Been in a car accident? yeah, but never anything bad.
191. Ridden an elephant? yep, Miami Zoo.
192. Made a web page? uhhuuuh.
193. Played with Barbies? of COURSE...Jasmine was my favorite. Did you know they have Barbie dolls named Teresa? : D cause they do. : P
194. Stayed up all night? pretty much.
195. Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look clean? psh, yeah. now i stash stuff in the cabinet.
196. Broken a bone? Nope.
197. Called a psychic or sex hotline? nah, but maybe i should?
198. Watched jerry Springer? nooo.
199. Gotten in trouble for talking in class? psh ALWAYS.
200. Been afraid of the dark? yeah it used to be one of my big fears.
201. Been in the hospital(not visiting)? yeah, 8th grade.
202. Had stitches? nope.
203. Dumped someone and regretted it? nope. when i want to break up with someone, i put it off as long as possible, so by the time i actually do it, i'm sure i don't like them anymore.
204. Went out with more than one person at a time? not really.
205. Lied? hahhaa.
206. Been arrested? nope.
207. Fallen asleep in class? coughMATHcough.
208. Used food for something other than to eat? memories of 7th grade lunch, sigh ; ) good times with mary and her banana.
209. Met a celebrity? mmm some old baseball player man, on my dad's request.
210. Broken the law? woohoo! : D
211. Ever loved someone so much it made you cry? i wouldn't call it love....but yeah, i've cried.
212. Hated yourself? of course, who hasn't.
213. Been brokenhearted? yes.
214. Broken someone's heart? ...so he said.
215. Wanted to kill someone? coughONLYCERTAINSCIENCETEACHERScough.
216. Fell off a chair?: all the time...most recently, last saturday while on the phone with Deeds. : D
217. Lap danced? nope : p
218. Been in a fist fight? nope.
219. Been in a cat fight? Cat snow fights with Lauren!
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220. Like to give hugs? ah, yes.
221. Like to walk in the rain? depending on the mood of the moment. : D
222. Sleep with or without clothes on? with. comfy pjs take the cake, sorry. : )
223. Prefer black or blue pens? black, perhaps just because i usually have those more often.
224. Dress up on Halloween? of course! : D
225. Have a job? psh, no. just babysitting.
226. Like to travel? it's aight.
227. Like someone? do they know? yes.
228. Sleep on your side, tummy or back? side
229. Think your attractive? psh. ugly days and pretty days, depends when you catch me, en mi opinione.
230. Want to marry? who? yes. someone i love : ) .
231. Have a goldfish? nah.
232. Ever have the falling dream? one time i dreamt i fell off my bunk bed, and i really did...how bout that.
233. Have stuffed animals? yes, all over the place. baby teddy still sleeps with me, rawr. : )
234. Go on vacation? acourse!
*~*~other~*~*
235. Do you believe in the horoscopes: mmhmm.
236. Do you like your handwriting: it's aight. sometimes i try and then its quite nice.
237. If you could be anybody, who would you be and why: haha my personal list...well, so as not to seem entirely stalkerish up here, if you know it then you know it, and if you don't feel free to ask.
238. What superhero would you be: "superman's girlfriend!"...good times, eh, girls?
239.Do you have any piercings: dos, en las orejas.
240. Any tattoos: nada.
241. If so where: n/a
242. If not, where and what do you want: nothing, thanks though.
243. Are you picky: depends on what, yep.
244. What makes you cry: emotions, both ways.
245. What makes you mad: frustrating situations and people who have their heads perpetually stuck up their asses coughdancough.
246. What do you think of eminem: ah, hes aight. pretty hot though, i will say.
247. Who do you admire: numero 237!
248. Do you like cartoons: sometimes, some cartoons.
250. What is the one place you have to visit before you die: mm, Barrancabermeja, I believe. (mom's place of birth, that is).
251.What did you do today? woke up at 6:20 to leave at 6:25, got a frappucino and orange juice at Starbucks, humanities, want to kill ms heath and chem test, lunch mrow, math blarh, physics rawr, watch some of swimfan, get online, take a walk, talk to lauren and erin en telefono, and work on this incredibly crazay survey.
252. Where do you work: don't : D
253. Do you even have a job you lazy bum: see # 252...thanks to the rents, and the age factor.
254. Are your parents lame: often, yes. but i do love them.
255. Do you own a miniskirt: psh yes who doesnt. : P
256. Do you floss: mmhm.
257. What is the farthest your have traveled: canada, im so boring.
258. Who is a diva: mariah carey...
259. What kind of shampoo do you use: herbal essences, yum.
260. What about conditioner: see #259.
261. Do you use big words to sound smart: nope.
262. When you get mad, do you swear a lot: even when i'm not mad, psh.
264. Do you have a magic 8 ball: no, but i use the online one like crazy, lol lauren.
265. Name something that comes in threes: my life, and the...people in it.
266. Ever worn black nail polish: nope
267. Do you have hairy arms: not really...
268. How many sheets are on your bed: two, with the comforter over it, and then i sleep on top of all of that with my quilt.
269. What?s under your bed: just a bit of random crap.
270. Do you have your own TV and vcr: the rec room stuff.
271. Do you believe in fate? pretty much. i mean, you have your own say but...'everything happens for a reason. question everything. question the reason.'
272. Do you see dead people: nope : )
273. Are you a good speller: fo sho.
274. What is your lucky charm: this little velvety red horse that used to be a christmas ornament...all the sequins and embroidery is ruined now, but its lucky as all hell.
275. Why do you drive on a parkway and park on a driveway: why do pigs fly!...oh wait, they don't...
276. Do you like little kids: mostly.
277. Are you talented: sometimes.
278. If so, how: n/a
279. Ever hugged a tree: haha yes! of COURSE.
280. Do you watch the weather channel while getting ready in your hotel room on vacation: not by my own choice (parents, that is)
281. Do you ever steal anything from hotels: theyre called HOTEL SAMPLES for a reason.
282. Ever seen a ghost: nooo.
283. How about an alien: no
284. Do you believe in either of them: don't have the time to think about it, really.
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287. Smoking: no thanks.
288. Eating disorders: dumb, but understandable.
289. Rap: depends.
290. Jerry Springer: haha.
291. Suicide: no.
292. South park: haven't seen it.
293. Summer: days are gone too soon, you shoot the moon and miss completely.
294. Tattoos: nah, gracias though.
295. Piercing: just ears, thanks...and belly button is nice, but not for me.
296. Make-up: depends.
297. Drinking: in moderation, my friends, in moderation.
298. Guys: rawr. : ) sexy and sometimes sweet but usually stupid. no offense, darlings ; )
299. Girls: chicks before dicks! : D and don't i love my girlsies, sigh...don't know what i'd do without yall.
what do you think when you hear this name:
300. Jennifer: Jones (my neighbor across the street)
301. Leah: Josh
302. Megan: Schlie is smart.
303. Brandon: a guy i met at camp.
304. Christina: Vickstrom, who sits next to me in math class.
305. Angela: Cloud...mgd girl who i sat next to the first day of sixth grade, how bout that.
306. Courtney: Cline : ).
307. Jeff: the only one i know is this guy who married my dad's friend Melanie and i was the flower girl at their wedding when they were four. they got divorced eight months later...don't have me as your flower girl, kiddos.
308. Mike: Schoenfield.
309. Nikki: that chick Spencer's liked for ages.
310. Ryan: mrehehe.
311. Lauren: too many...valentino, ross, bollinger, caldwell, voler, casat.
312. Derek: isn't he on some tv show...?
313. Lisa: Laurene, of course!
314. Kristi: I know a CHristiE...and of course, love her to death.
315. Matt: a friend from camp : ).
316. Holly: spears!, remember her?
317. Jackie: that Barringer chica from 3rd grade who I never really knew.
318. Cait: Clairebear's sistah.
319. Caroline: Lewis, who is in my Oresteia group and is really pretty and is a goood artist.
320. Joseph: Chad - Reed. John - Jenkins.
321. Jared: yessir, Subway!
322. Patrick: Ormond.
323. Erin: Rankin : )
*~*~your friends~*~*
333. Friends: lovable as all. : D
334. Best friend: Deeds- Claire, LaurenLauraStephDashaErin...don't think I'm leaving anyone out. : D
335. Spend most time with: Deeds, I think.
337. Funniest: Claire, Laura, Stern, and Chris.
338. Smartest: Claire? Who knows. It's IB, we're all smart.
339. Hottest: Rawr.
340. Strongest: hmm. Good question...not me.
341. Most athletic: Christine Gourley.
342. Knows you the best: Deeds, of course.
343. Most outgoing: a lot of you, actually...Laura?
344. Most shy: Deeds, in a way...Lauren Ross, in a tooootally different way. Crazy, ain't it?
345. Always negative: hm...don't know, actually.
346. Which one let the dogs out: haha.
347. Most trustworthy: Deeds, I'd like to think.
348. Most fun to be with: everyone, depending on my mood.
349. Biggest flirt: We're a flirty bunch! : )
350. Best dressed: CLAIREBEAR YOU ALBINO SKUNK YOU...Dasha, too. That girl has Russian class, yo. : )
351. Best eyes: gotta agree with Claire and say Stern...twice the colors, twice the coolness. : P
352. Most depressed: Ross?
353. One to gossip with: Lauren V, I do believe.
354. Sweetest: Dasha, in a way...Steph/Deeds, in a totally different way.
355. Who has the best room: I <3 claire's bed, Christie's closet set-up, Lauren's space theme, DD's space...but the tessness that is my room is unbeatable, yum.
356. Who follows you: Depends...?
357. Who do you follow: Everyone, in one way or another.
358. Who do you pretend to like but cant stand: Several people, in certain situations.
359. Do you make friends easily: i...think so.
360. Are you intimidated by any of your friends: often...especially certain ones.
361. If u were stranded on a desert island then who, out of your friends, would u want to be there with u:... someone I could talk to for hours on end, and not get tired of, and someone who would understand the fact that there's no way I could survive on my own.
362.Who do u think would help u the most if u were in trouble: Depends what kind of trouble...Deeds and Claire though, I think.
363. Who do u think would risk their life to save yours: nobody. At least, I hope not.
364. Who is the most popular: depends how you look at things.
365. Who is the most unpopular: rawr, see #364.
366.Who do u want to go to college with: EVERYBODY.
367. Who do u wish could be part of your family: Alex Casat=older sister. And I wouldn't mind an older brother, either...any volunteers? Remember, no incest. ; )
368. Who is the biggest junk food junkie: moi. : D
369. Who would do anything for 1 million bucks: mm...no clue.
370. Who do u think has the nicest siblings: not Deeds, lol. Don't know. ERIN CAUSE SHE HAS NONE : D.
371. Who do u think has the nicest mom: Clairebear.
372. Who do u think has the nicest dad: I get along well with Lauren's...
373. Who do you have the most inside jokes with: don't know.
*~*~which way would you spell it~*~*
374. Megan or Meghan: Megan
375. Lacey or lacy: Lacey
376. Steven or Stephen: Steven
377. Kurt or curt: Kurt
378. Caryn or Karen: More used to Karen, but Caryn has its charm too.
379. Mark or marc: Mark
380. Brandi or brandy: brandy
381. Eric or Erik: Eric
382. Corrine or Carine: Corrine
383. Kari or Carrie: Kari. Wasn't she on realworld?
384. Jackie or Jacqui: Jackie
385. Disarray or Desiree: Desiree, fo sho.
386. Jayde or jade: jade
387. Amy or Aimee: Amy
388. Bradi or Brady: Bradi? weird names, yo.
389. Chelsea or chelsey: Chelsea
390. Katelyn or kaitlyn: Kaitlyn.
391. Ashley or Ashleigh: Ashley.
392. Geoffrey or Jeffrey: Jeffrey.
393. Their or there: mmhmm clairebear, they're DIFFERENT WORDS.
394. Two, too, or to: see 393
395. Here or hear: see 393
(was that useful???) no but i'm grounded so fuck it.
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396. Pierced nose or tongue? eww, neither.
397. Be serious or funny? balance em, depending on the situation kids.
398. Single or taken? single
399. Simple or complicated? simplicated!...i like it, clairsey.
400. Law or anarchy? law, we need it : P
401. Mtv or vh1? both.
402. 7th haven or Dawson's creek? 7th Heaven, yum.
403. Sugar or salt? sugar
404. Silver or gold? silver
405. Tongue or belly button ring? belly button
406. Chocolate or flowers? both, and a stuffed animal ; ).
407. Angels or miracles? miracles...but, both.
408. Color or black-and-white photos? black-and-white.
409. Sunrise or sunset? sunset.
410. M&m?s or skittles? M&Ms.
411. Rap or rock? rock
412. Stay up late or sleep in? both, always if i had it my way.
413. TV or radio? Kazaa, really.
414. Hot or cold? Hot boys, cold nights...wow, I just thought of that! : )
415. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? Tall, please.
416. Sun or moon? Both...
417. What time is it? 11:16
418. Diamond or ruby? diamond
419. Left or right? politically left, handedly right.
420. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? Both, but best friend takes precedence.
421. Vanilla or chocolate? Chocolate (preferably, chip cookie dough)
422. Kids or not? kids. lots. : D
423. Cat or dog? rawr, neither. but dogs, i suppose, and if other people i love them...i can too.
424. Half empty or half full? full full!
425. Mustard or ketchup? both, but ketchup.
426. Newspaper or magazine? magazine
427. Spring or fall? fall.
428. Give or receive? Both, yum.
429. Rain or snow? ...when the snows come rolling in, you're rolling too, with some new lover.... Sigh. Snows, they hold memories. But- both.
430. Lace or satin? BOTH, if you have my personal favorite little piece of hot pink Victoria's Secretness.
431. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? Lifetime of friendship, acourse.
432. Happy or sad? happy
433. Corduroy or plaid? corduroy...the bear, in the books? Aw.
434. Wonder or amazement? Amazement.
435. Sneakers or sandals? flip-flops, darling.
436. McDonalds or burger king? Wendy's with Deeds, like last year after school.
437. Blondes or brunettes? i think we all know the answer.
438. Mexican or Italian food? Italian, SO THERE. It's Colombian, goddammit ; ).
439. Lights on or off? depends what the hell is going on.
440. Duct tape or scotch tape? scotch, double-sided.
441. Candy or soda?candy, chocolate.
442. A house in the woods or the city? my NYC apartment. Yum.
443. Pepsi or coke? Lemonade, please.
444. Nike or adidas? nike.
*~*~love life~*~*
449. If you could kiss anyone in the world, who would it be: one kiss? no consequences?...there's a few options, but they all center around john mayer.
450. If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be: how wonderful would it be to date some guy who could write you songs...Manda and I talked about this. Every time I listen to Something Corporate- Konstantine...just think, some girl made some guy write all of that for her. And Maroon 5's album, Songs About Jane...sigh.
451. What is the biggest turn off: Coming on or moving too fast, and awkwardness.
452. What is the biggest turn on: charm and gentlemanliness.
453. Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee: neither, please.
454. Do you think there is a person for everyone: "Love could never be so contrived or so boring as to provide us with only one soulmate."
455. If yes, do you know who yours is: I think I may have bumped into a few so far...
456. Where is the best place to be kissed? wherever you're in love, mrow.
457. Where is the most romantic place to take a date: Anywhere that's not a given makeout session.
458. Do you believe in love at first sight: only in capacity.
459. Have you ever been in love: already answered this, somewhere.
470. Do you have a b/f or g/f: nope.
471. Do you want one: only if it's the right person.
472. How long have you been together: n/a
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475. What do you look for in a guy? laughter, a smile, a sense of romance, intelligence, charisma, and that underneath goodguyness that oughta be a guarantee they won't screw you over...on purpose.
476. Tough or hardcore guys? nah.
477. Sweet or innocent guy? not too sweet. pussy-whipped, eh lyss? ; )
478. Smart or athletic guys? smart over athletic.
488. Favorite cologne on a guy? whatever smells good. and cologneless is fine too, so long as you smell yummy. Oh, and pleaseremembertoshowerthankyoutheend.
489. Best gift a guy could give? love : P. this is so hopelessly romantic, eh? Depends on the guy.
490. Flowers. . . Sweet or wasteful? sweet, acourse.
491. Sweetest guy you know? depends, in a way.
~*~*~past~*~*~
501. First grade teacher's name: Two days a week at Sunset- Mrs. Trujillo. Three days at GW Carver- Mrs. Brophy
502. Last word you said: "night"
503. Last song you sang: Maroon 5, while on my walk.
504. Last meal you ate: icecream for dinner. : D
505. Favorite childhood cartoon: i didn't really do cartoons.
506. What did you hate most about school: waiting.
507. Last person you flipped off: Deeds, at her house, I imagine.
508. Last song stuck in your head: Can't Stop Loving You
509. What line/verse: "cause I can't stop loving you...no i won't stop loving you..."
510. Last time you were burned: what, actually? a long time ago- don't remember. and romantically?...psh, we all know the answer anyway.
511. How: See #510. Or, archives, for more info. : P
512. Last time you bled: elbow, yesterday in spanish.
513. Favorite game show as a child: wheel of fortune, woot woot!
*~*~present~*~*
514. What's in your cd player: Maroon 5
515. What color sox are you wearing: I'M NOT!
516. What's under your bed: yes, repeat!
517. What's the weather like: fall,..yummmmm.
518. What is on your wall: in this room? art projects from us unartistic reed kids' adventures with Mrs. Price. Did yall Barringer kiddos know she's still there? Wow : D
519. What time did you wake up today: 6:20, to leave at 6:25. Fun stuff, lemme tell ya.
520. Did you think it was earlier, later, or on time: later. That's pathetic.
*~*~future~*~*
521. Who do you want to marry: someone i love, a whole whole lot.
522. Are you going to college: sigh, yes.
523. If so, how long do you want to go: i'll decide...later. when i get there, perchance.
524. Where do you want to go: somewhere pretty...and, somewhere that'll make my parents happy, i spose.
525. What is your career going to be: attorney, quite likely.
526. Where are you going to live: somewhere where I'm happy?
257. How many kids do you want: a lot, I believe. Prolly 3 or 4.
528. Kids names girls: spanishy.
529. Kids names boys: family.
530. Where do you want your honeymoon: europe or south america, or a fancy island.
531. What kind of car will you have: something drivable? i dont care, really.
532. What kind of house will you have: pretty, big, and preferably with an ocean view.
533. Do you like this survey? it's alright if youre BORED AND GROUNDED.
534. Is this one of the best surveys you've ever taken? i'll agree with claire, damn memorable.
535. How about the most unique? not really, but its all good.
536. Have you gotten most of these questions on another survey? uhhuh.
537. Do you like to answer questions? to an extent.
538. Are you getting annoyed with this survey? not really since im GROUNDED...but i am tired.
539. If you are, are you going to delete questions off of the bottom because your bored? psh, I don't cheat.
540. What?s your favorite kind of tree? the huggable kind, of course!
541. When you look at a person with lime green tights on, what?s the first thing that comes to your head? eww.
what?s the first thing that comes to your head when you hear/see:::
542. A laptop: cool.
543. A mismatched person: depends...mismatched like hwitz? gross.
544. A guy with long hair: bleh.
545. A guy with spiked hair: depends
546. A girl with spiked hair : agree with claire..."hey, its your hair"
547. A tree with no leaves : NAKED
548. A couch with a sheet over it : animals were here? : P
549. Ronnie: Weasley.
550. Raphael : all I can think is Lauren's dad, but that's Ralph...and Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer. I'm so tiiired.
551. A guy wearing a necklace: some pull it off, some don't.
552. A girl wearing a hat: depends on the girl. damn nancy, that chick can pull off ANY hat, ever.
553. A mall: we must go, girls!, this weekend!...prom dresses and Victoria's secret, mrow.
556. Abercrombie and Fitch: too expensive.
557. Aerospatiale: Aeropostale, you mean? Dash.
558. Hot topic: Nora's stories in English, and that day after iceskating...member that?
559. Pacific sun: too much dinero for the broke chicas
560. Saved by the bell: used to watch it in the morning before school in middle school.
561. Boy meets world: who doesn't want a Corey and Topanga.
562. Beverly hills 90210: never watched it.
563. A stereo system: yay.
564. A gun: bang.
565. Someone shout out?I?m eating peanuts!!!?: gimme some?
566. Someone shout out ?I have to pee!!?: thaaat's nice.
567. Someone shout out ?what?s the answer?!?: haha you must be in MS HEATHS CHEM CLASS WHERE SHE DOESNT EVEN NOTICE US SHARING WORKSHEETS IN THE BEGINNING OF CLASS.
568. A desk: homework : (
569. A teacher: teaches.
571. What do you think of the questions they make you answer at the doctors office?: better than the physical exam.
572. Do you like the number 10? sure. its late.
573. What about 5? mk. i'm sure goodloe has good stories on these...
574. Are you getting really bored now? a little...more just TIRED
575. Are you annoyed? NO JUST TIRED. ok yeah now i'm annoyed.
576. How many questions do you think this survey should have? SEVEN THE NUMBER OF COMPLETION
579. What are your last words? sleeeep. : D AND FOUR DAY WEEKENDS ROCK.
580. That?s nice, the survey: is good if you have nothing better to do cause youre grouuuunded.
582. Do you want to pay bills? well...hopefully by that time i wont be broke ALWAYs.
583. How do you think your parents feel when they have to pay bills? excited. who doesnt love forking over money!
584. Do you do your own laundry? psh, im sposed to.
585. Do you clean all the bathrooms in your house? no way. thats what the cleaning people are for. rawr.
586. How many bathrooms are in your house? 2 and a half.
587. How many TV?s are in your house? 2
588. How many phones are in your house? 4, counting cell.
589. How many tables are in your cafeteria? too many. gonna be interesting when we all have to eat in there tues, wed, and thurs, btw.
590. How many beds are in your house? 5, and six counting the pullout ground sofa bed.
591. How many couches are in your house? 2
592. What are you thinking about right now? when im done im going to sleep. life is sweet.
593 how many desks are in your math class? 35ish. God, why MATH.
594. Do you get a lot of math homework? dear god yes.
595. Do you hang out with your friends a lot? mmhmmm.
596. Are you getting sick of this survey? yeahhhh, estoy muy cansada.
597. Have you seen clueless? actually, no. how bout that.
598. What are your opinions of that movie? n/a
599. Did you think when you first started watching it that cher and josh were going to get hooked up? n/a
600. Did you think that Christian was gay? see #598
601. I did. If you didn?t, do you think you?re a tard? see #599
602. If you had to pick a religion to be, what would you be? Catholic, psh. I'm too accustomed to it.
603. What are you thinking about right now? smiles, and presmiles, and sleep.
604. What is your favorite store in the mall nearest you? Express
605. How long does it take to get to the mall nearest you? less than 10 to southpark.
606. What is the mall called? see #605
607. Do they have a store called belk? mmhmm
608. How about a major sports store? uhhuh
609. Is there a pet shop? nope
610. What?s your all time favorite font? tahoma
611. What do you like better, lap tops or computers? both?
612. Spaghetti or ziti? Spaghetti!!!
613. Macaroni w/cheese or w/sauce/ Cheese? how bout just cheese, k?
614. Paintings or photos? both.
615. Stripes or solids? solids
616. Basements or attics? attics.
617. Do you like crushes because of their looks or personality? both. everything.
618. Life or no life?Life (IB CHIC!), when the parents allow it.
619. Individual or just like everyone else? a little of both
620. Loud or quiet? depends on situation.
621. Shy or rambunctious? see #620
622. Refrigerator or freezer? freezer = icecream. : D
623. Carpet or tile? carpet, fuzzy and warm. Warm and fuzzy, mmm.
624. Marble or wood? marble.
625. Plaid or stripes? plaid, for fall.
626. Stripes or dots? stripes i spose.
627. Dots or lines? lines. vectors. ew.
628. Now what time is it? 11:57
629. Monopoly or life? Life. The real thing is nice, too.
630. Uno or skip-bo? uno
631. Beauty and the beast or Aladdin? ah, good idea. Maybe tomorrow I'll watch a Disney movie. : D
632. Toy story 1 or toy story 2? Both.
633. Armageddon or deep impact? neiter.
634. You?ve got mail or ever after? ever after, awww.
635. Sound of music or my fair lady? sound of music!!! sigh, i oughta watch that sometime soon.
636. Bsb or n*sync? 5th grade...i <3d bsb, lauren caldwell <3d n*sync. Hah, the things we remember.
637. Dawn or sunny? sunny.
638. Light or dark? dark, usually
639. Top or bottom? ...
640. Higher or lower? uh, higher?
641. Left or right? already answered, didn't i?
642. Big or small? HAHAHA it's way too late to think up appropriate answers to dirty questions.
643. Dad or mom? meh.
644. Sitcoms or movies? sitcoms, i think...depending on how ADD im feeling.
645. TV movies or real movies? depends.
646. Scanner or Xerox machines? whichever.
647. Church or mass? mass
648. Boat or canoe? boat.
649. Ocean or lake? ocean
650. Are you sick of this survey yet? PSH YES
651. A lot?ahhh...getting there.
652. More than you were b4 or the same? ok stop.
653. Do you want me to stop now? see #652.
654. Are you sure? see #652.
655. Okay, do you have any final thoughts? sweet dreams, Tess.
656. Do you have more younger friends or older friends? older, acourse.
657. Look!! its question 657!!!!!: LOOK FUCK YOU.
658. Is this one of the longest surveys you?ve taken? mm YEAH
659. Is it the longest? YES, OK, YES. THIS IS MORE INSANELY IRRITATING THAN IB GODDAMMIT. but i will persevere, mrow.
660. Is it interesting? its aight. i doubt anyone'll read it, but whatever.
661. Would you ever like someone 3 years younger than you? prolly not in high school.
662. When you like someone, do you tell them right away? depends on the situation...usually, definitely not.
663. Do you wait for signs? always.
664. What?s your favorite letter of the alphabet: T :P...Ms are nice too.
665. Do you think that z is a cool letter? sure why not.
667. So, do you have any final words? see you in the morninggggg
668. Say something great about the person who sent you this here: Clairebear, and I love her so much, and shes the greatest, and shes smart and pretty and fun and interesting and awesome. The end.
669. What time is it now? 12:05 AM, September 26th!, says computer clock.
And bedtime, says I.
The end.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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iwillnotscrewthisup
iwillnotscrewthisup
iwillnotscrewthisup
bydoing theexactsamethings i do to screweverythingelseup.
thankyoutheend.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 3:58 PM
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wWednesday, September 24, 2003 |
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measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
And this is how every day ends, this is how a day ends and an epoch begins. This is how I say that everything is gonna be just fine, and that it's all worth it in the end. This is how I say the things I really can't, and this is how I pretend it's alright when it's not but it should be. So then I took my turn. Oh, what a thing to 've done. And it was all yellow.
This is how I figure things out, in my own time. Just bend the pieces till they fit, like they were made for it. But they weren't meant for this. No, they weren't meant for this.
For you I bleed myself dry. For you I bleed myself dry.
This is what IB is doing to me.
Well, not IB, really.
This is what my life is doing to me, my life and the way in which I choose to live it.
And at 11:27, when the day should've ended hours ago and I've been up waiting for the obvious things that I shouldn't, and I'm covered in lies that I have to put up here, I wouldn't have it any other way.
It's crazy...dammit.
This is incredible, starving, insatiable...
Sometimes you have to be not yourself to end up happy in who you are. And trust, trust is good too.
CAS stuff, and then sleeeeep the almighty.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Also, today is September 24th. How bout that, eh?
*sigh*
Tomorrow evening, I believe I will fill out the excessively pointless SIX HUNDRED AND SIXTY NINE QUESTION SURVEY.
I hope you are all as excited as I am, though I somehow doubt it.
Mrow.
Time to stop posting every two minutes.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Oh, and for anyone who cares, other than myself, Driver's Ed class dates have been set- December 1st through the 17th. Dammit, I probably won't manage to get my permit till Februaryish...that sucks.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet...
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I'm holding
Here in my fire-
This is for you.
Am I too obvious to preach it?
Humanities- turning in Alfie, and getting caught detouring after pictures.
Drama- pretending to take notes, and then writing my crappy letter. Oh, but getting some great laughs out of Chris and Kirsten's improv ("What, am I not pleasing to you?") : )
Gym- trying to run a mile, and sitting out during handball. Good times, good times. But it was realllly pretty out, at any rate.
Lunch- group, er, "problem solving" which nearly ended in disaster. Funny though.
Spanish- quiz, which was no fun, as always. and getting yelled at for some crazy shiz involving a waterbottle which was endowed with STDs thanks to Stern and Chris's, er, willingness to share. It's allll good.
After school was getting dragged halfway down the SC hallway on my ass, which was more fun than it might sound, and then chasing David/Jackson/Justin into the parking lot to get my candy back. And then making new rules about weight limits on the sidewalk. : ) Oh yeah, and then almost missing my bus. But finally making it to DD's, and getting my stats for the math proj. And then fooling Ms. Richie into thinking I'd actually practiced.
Ah, and tonight was my first night with my kindergarteners. They are so cute. And so incredibly random. And we are teaching them the sign of the cross. Mallory is the cutest, for the record. And Jack. And...aww.
And now, it's time for chemistry and phone time.
And then, sleep.
Tomorrow night looks like a night of groundation. Woot. I'll live though. : D
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 8:27 PM
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wTuesday, September 23, 2003 |
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How're you feeling-
When the day has had its way with both of us.
And oh, I've gone out of my way
But I'm not free from this pain I'm leaving.
I was a fool to think someday would come around.
No, I'm not thinking that way
Cause now I see-
You are not what you seem.
You are a mystery to me...
Ahhhh. : D
I got home at 4.
I just woke up.
Yayyy. I feel sooooo good right now.
Now there's just project to be finished up.
Er, begun. And then finished up.
SooJinStar2B: Mine went from a cow to a cat to a turtle.
Miamigirl1288: hahaaa
SooJinStar2B: For a flickering second it was a snake.
Miamigirl1288: yeah, im doing a turtle.
Miamigirl1288: it may become a snake though.
Miamigirl1288: seeing as i have NO artistic talent whatsoever, i doubt anyone'll be able to tell the difference anyway.
SooJinStar2B: Turtle was super easy.
SooJinStar2B: But snake took no skill whatsoever.
Miamigirl1288: hmmm.
Miamigirl1288: both valid options, then : D
SooJinStar2B: You could go the extra mile and draw patterns on your snake.
Miamigirl1288: woot, i just found a picture of a TWO HEADED turtle
Miamigirl1288: that would definitely solve the originality problem.
SooJinStar2B: Hhaha
Miamigirl1288: ok HERES an idea
Miamigirl1288: i could you know, bring the turtle to life, by showing it in motion
Miamigirl1288: and i could have it IN ITS SHELL
Miamigirl1288: THAT WOULD BE SOOOO EASY
SooJinStar2B: Nice.
SooJinStar2B: Or just make the base and say that you've captured the essence of the turtle's soul.
: D Awesooome.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 7:59 PM
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wMonday, September 22, 2003 |
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And anyone who tried to deny you
Must be out of their mind
Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter now I met you.
The word of the day is definitely fucked.
With perfect sense, of course, but still fucked.
I have so much work. I am drowning in a sea of IB.
Which is besides this other stuff, and I don't really know what to say about that.
I hate not being able to write exactly what I mean up here, but I guess that's the way some things are.
And I have to take a shower tomorrow morning, and I hate that.
AGGHHH I need more sleep, so bad.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Did I mention Mom's put AOL guardian on me?
It's like a fucking prison around here. That pisses me off so much, it's unbelievable.
I'd rebel, but I doubt it'd get me anywhere except for grounded for the weekend.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Anyone perfect must be lying
Anything easy has its cost-
Anyone plain can be lovely
Anyone's love can be lost.
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind.
Stuff is fucked, but these decisions aren't mine to be made.
I need to quit it, but I don't want to...I never want to do what I need to.
Which brings me back around to math homework.
My Oresteia group rocks. It's like Maggie, Greg, Megan, Josh, Elbie, Caroline, Inas (sp?)...and other people, whose names aren't coming to mind right now. Ah well. We have a good idea, so I expect it'll all come together and kick ass. : D
Drama was aight. Elbie and I just slacked off, so what else is new? Gym was fine. Sometimes people who seem perfect, aren't. Lunch was funny, in that thiswouldbefunnierifitwassomeoneelse's life kinda way. Lol. Spanish was cool, as always, especially getting caught for eating like three times. Uhm, the quizzes suck. Really, really badly.
After school was tres cool. Ran around to the band room, then to Global to have my feet labeled and just chill with Tyler and Stern and Meggo. And then, outside for a comforting talk with Greg and getting my other foot, my left hand, and my left leg claimed. Lovely, eh?
And after that, Mom took me to Michael's to get my project materials. Um, I'm so not looking forward to doing that project. Soooo I think I'll put it off for tomorrow. : D
So yep, that was today.
Now, math and chem. Tomorrow promises to have a good deal of just overall mediocreness to it, but it's all good.
Sigh, for life.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 6:26 PM
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wSunday, September 21, 2003 |
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And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover.
And you're restless
And I'm naked
You gotta get out, you can't stand to see me shaking.
Oh, did you let me go?
I didn't think so.
And you don't wanna be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasant interruption to the past
And you don't wanna look much closer
Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had
Crashed.
And it did-
Because of me.
This is my life, and now it is September.
September is typicality. It is that slipping-into-routine where every day feels the same, in a way, except for those stolen moments. Where you're laughing on the phone too early in the morning, and you sound like a mix between a dying cat and an ecstatic horse. Where you eat icecream after you do a bit of homework, because you're rewarding yourself for your lack of productivity.
There is a line on my right leg from where I lean it against the edge of this ghettofied desk when I'm on the computer, and it will probably be there for the next nine or so months straight. It gets annoying when I try to shave and even Venus skips over that tiny spot.
In three months and four days, it is Christmas. In three months and nine days, it is my birthday.
Seasons change. People change. "Change is good. Change is bad. Change is change."
I can't resist it, I can't resist this.
The days get shorter. The nights get colder. I'm lonely with so many people to love.
Sometimes smiles make my day, when I try not to let them.
Sometimes I can't find any words to pull it all together, but lately I don't mind.
Ohmanohman, I know this is so wrong, and so stupid, and so pathetic, but I don't want to change it. Not for the world, not for the universe would I change it.
This is crazy. I is one crazy mofo.
I'm procrastinating.
I tell Lauren the same things every day in gym. How fall is my favorite season, and I should've been born in September, or maybe October. December though...everything is for its reasons.
Time flies, time dies.
I'm sorry this is an insane entry. No, I'm not.
I'm not going to be sorry anymore. Not unless I have to be.
Everything is wonderful.
I'm procrastinating.
This is stupid.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming...
Well, the whole groundation thing isn't proving to be much of a setback.
Some people make my day, in a way.
I need to go do my reading. Book of Job, that is.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Announcement.
Yeah, just so all of yall who read this know, I'm grounded off phone and internet today.
Er, don't think I can go anywhere either, acourse.
I might be able to sneak out a few calls or a few minutes online, but we'll see.
Stuff kinda sucks around here but... :-D yeah. I'll live, I hope.
Anyway, off to church.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I can feel...so ignorant, for someone of sound mind.
I'd planned to delete that post when I got home. Well, actually, at one point I was just going to edit it, and at another, I was going to delete it entirely. But now, I've decided to just let it alone. I've never deleted a post in the past, what, nine months, as much as I've wanted to delete whole groups of them- so I don't intend to start now.
This afternoon at the movie was cool. Third-wheelin' it wasn't bad at all, just cause Meg and Stern are both good friends of mine. "YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT MEN WITH BIG GUITARS...LONG STRINGS!" Not my favorite activity, but I had to get that Spanish jazz done. Not that I managed to follow the plotline of the movie at alll...but, yeah.
After that was the festival. That was...well, interesting. --\\-///\\/\/...yeah. Um...we were there for a bit, which was cool. Then I broke down for a second with Elbie, for various reasons. Mainly just vulnerability, you know the drill...and just this feeling of incredibily unnerving frustratedness. Then we went to Patrick's house, which was aight. And then back, due to a bit of ADD-ness?, and we rode in Mark's car, which was quite fun. And then...cotton candy, yum.
And yeah, I realized I had nothing to lose, so I went and had a talk on the hill. I was almost unnerved by the fact that tonight I finally realized that it's not like I've done something wrong, or screwed something up. And maybe things will change, and I actually accomplished something, or maybe things won't change, not at all...but the fact is, I finally at least broke the surface and put some of the crap that's out there on the table. This whole blunt honesty thing is really working for me, I believe. Like I said, I had nothing to lose.
Then the massive orgy : D. Que divertido, no? Funny though, how sometimes it seems as though your actions can influence the actions of another in a totally unrelated circumstance. Which is, I believe, a good thing.
Everyone but me went to Stern's afterward, which kinda sucked, but whatever. Oh yeah, and I'm grounded next Friday night, for those interested. Sucks, don't it? My parents really need to learn to loosen up.
Ah. I feel...tired.
But...life is quite alright, really.
Oh, you see that skin-
It's the same she's been
Standing in
Since the day you two met
I bet I was on your mind
Never, ever, anytime.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 12:03 AM
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wSaturday, September 20, 2003 |
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A quick post, in a fit of frustration.
Some people really need to grow up. I mean, really.
I just don't have the energy for this anymore. I've realized as much as I used to care...at this point, I just don't want to deal with it.
I doubt you'll even read this, but for the record, this whole thing is your fault. I've never been anything but perfectly friendly to you over the past months. If you hate me for some unknown reason, just SAY so. I don't have time to waste, and as much as friendship is important to me...I'm not gonna push it if you just don't give.
Which is perfectly fine, and entirely your right.
But honestly, could you at least figure it out? and make it clear?
And while you're at it, at least be courteous?
Maybe I'm blowing it out of proportion, or making something up in my head, but I'm not stupid...I'm just saying what I probably should have said four months ago.
And now, off to the movies. :-)
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I'm going under
Over you, over you.
If I don't think about the logistics of life as a whole, it is going extremely yummily.
Last night was such a blast. Football game was good, walked around with Will a lot, had a smoothie (yum), watched Jamie's waterbottle trick. :-) Afterwards, headed off to the marble slab with Clairebear and Jamie. That was fun. I highly recomment the cheesecake icecream...heavenly. Oh yeah, and Jamie spilled icecream on me ;-). Nice, eh?
After that Clairsey and I went home. And talked for a long time. And slept. And then she woke up and left, and I went back to sleep. And slept. And woke up, and felt sick.
And talked on the phone, and am now getting ready for the spanish movie.
i really need a shower.
later.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 2:56 PM
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wFriday, September 19, 2003 |
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Tap on my window, knock on my door.
I want to make you feel beautiful.
AHYAYWOW. Things are so nice, when I remember not to think about them too much. This is not a mess, it is just an, er, temporary setback. :-D
Progress reports: world history, 97. english, 91 (maybe 2? don't remember). drama, 95ish. spanish, 92 (i really wanna bring that up. especially since if i get another b in spanish my parents will hurt me, badly). gym, A. chem, 94. math, 78...80ish, with the 83 test grade. physics, something good. 100 on that test, yo. Kickass.
Yeah, so notice any...OUTLIERS in that little breakdown, Mrs. Webb?
Mreh. I must bring it up, and then things will be perfectamente.
I'm going to go take a quick nap before the football game and some rockin ClaireTeresa time. I'm so essited. :-D
*Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.*
That, my friends, was universal sigh language.
Due to the difficulty of interpretation online, it means thankgoditsfridayiloveclairedeedsmeggolaurenelbieanddashatonightibetwillbelotsoffunSMOOTHIEthehugisoverpepralliesrockmyworldandfallissuchthebestandOHYEAH,ifeverythingcouldjuststaylikethisforeverthatwouldjusttakethecake...
and yeah, that's all one word.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Ah. Everything is back to normal. It's midnight on a Thursday/Friday, and I'm stressing over chem and talking to Deeds and Claire online. Things feel so...right.
Today's been stressful, but I don't care. Tomorrow's Friday.
Zuzu128 (12:00:36 AM): aaak, dammit girl, youve dug yourself into your own damn grave
Zuzu128 (12:01:43 AM): but itll all be good in the end
Zuzu128 (12:01:45 AM): i know it will
Zuzu128 (12:01:53 AM): and you will be happy
Zuzu128 (12:02:08 AM): because i said so, got it?
Did I mention, everything's back to normal?
Oh yeah, my apologies for the insane commentation on claire's mblog. I do morethanthree that thing, though. :-D
Sigh. Die science die.
:-D
"Pink, because it's...pretty."
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
posted by
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wWednesday, September 17, 2003 |
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My life is Find and Fix. Screw it up the first time around. Come after school and change your answers. And then, it'll be all better.
Ah, today.
Humanities- stressing about math, and sleeping through the video. Oh, and 97 on the Gil test. Kickass.
Chemistry- I hate Mrs. Heath, with a fiery burning passion. FIERY BURNING passion, ya hear? Um, yeah. I can't do that class all year. It's like Horowitz, times a hundred and minus the awesome part where we have lunch to, er, share answers with the teacher's edition. Oh yeah, and no pretending she's God. :-D
Lunch was great. I love my friends. They make it all better.
Math was aight. I think I passed the test. I don't like to call em though. We'll see.
Physics was fine. I believe, ladies and gents, that things are fixed between me and Deeds. This afternoon, for the first time in about a month, things just felt so...right again.
Hah, if you didn't know me, you'd think I was talking about a relationship. I loff. :-)
After school was funness with Clairebear and Dash and the Deedster after walking out on the Governor's School thing. We're doin it next year, it's all good.
Claire and DD and I went and lay in the sunny grass.
Me- "That's a really cute picture of Meggo and Stern!"
Claire- "Er...that's ME and Meg."
Me- "NOO, not THAT picture!"
Hah. I loff.
Ah, I picked up my driver's ed form, only to lose it for the second time. Damn.
Meg's a gooood driver. Stick shift and everything, yo. Lol.
Oh yeah, cause after school was a "study session" at 'Bou', to quote Meggo. That was a blast. Made my day! :-)
Especially the pics. See Claire's moblog at some later point for the...web-appropriate ones. :-D
Life's pretty decent. Meg's a really cool chick, and she's burning me the Maroon 5 cd. That rocks my socks.
Uhm, hurricane!, I hope.
Shake down, you make me break
For goodness sake
I think I'm on the edge
Of something new with you
Shout out, don't drown the sound
I'll drown you out
You'll never scream so loud
As I want to scream with you
Standing there with your smile blinding
Your eyes from seeing
My face as I'm dying
To figure out a girl
But she drifts so far away
I'm on her coast
So maybe I should stay
And map around your world.
So don't say-
These currents are still killing me.
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane.
Stand up, don't make a sound
Your ears might bleed
There are sweet flourescent enemies
That live inside me.
The world moves faster than I knew-
Not fast enough to not creep up on you
And the space we put between.
So pull me under your weather patterns
Your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
Becuase the sunburn's what I needed.
You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours til you wake
With your baby's breath-
Breathe symphonies
Come on, sweet catastrophe.
Maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my oceans calm
This time I know nothings wrong.
And I love the way the outside finally fits the inside. :-D
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 8:57 PM
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wTuesday, September 16, 2003 |
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Maybe I wrote this to you, or maybe I'm just throwing words around to see how they sound.
If it were up to me, I would change everything around.
I would stop lying, because it's obvious, if not to all of you...then certainly to me, that all these lies get me nowhere.
If you say things enough to yourself, you think they come true. They don't really.
In a way, it's all your fault, no matter what's going on in your head, because you can help it. The thing is, though, that helping it isn't always what you really want, when you get down to the nitty-gritty.
There's something about being stupid, and doing things that you know you'll regret, that makes me want to do them even more.
I wish I couldn't fake it, because then I wouldn't have to.
And what if there were two, side by side in orbit, around the fairest sun?
That bright, tight forever drum could not describe this trappedness.
You have such a right, you have such a hope, you have such a smile.
I wish I were you, in a million times three ways. Even though sometimes people tell me I shouldn't, they can't be true, because they're part of the problem.
I can't ever fix this.
I wish I couldn't fake it, because then I wouldn't have to.
And if it were up to me, things would always be different. Then, even though I know how, I would pretend I didn't. That way, I would be you. And then...
Well, you know the rest of this story, darling.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Life's aight.
Well, strike that.
It's always wonderful, and then the same things go and fuck it up, over and over and over again. Sometimes I wonder, in a way, what would happen if those same things stopped being there. Would I find something new to always get in the way?
Will I, when all of this shiz is over?
Will there always be something in the way...
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I don't know what to say, right now.
Laura and Dan broke up. For any of you who know Laura, make sure she knows how much you love her. She really needs it right now.
In other news, life's tough.
Not that I have any right to complain.
It's just...these little pieces, they don't make it any easier.
This is pathetic.
I should have been in bed two hours ago.
I feel like crying.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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And how does it feel, to be out on your own?
And now it's too late to come home...
Before I die, I want to live in New York City for at least six months.
I want to work in a coffee shop.
I want to sit in a bar on my time off and people watch and write.
I want to find someone I really, really love, and dance in a subway tunnel with them to the sounds of a street musician.
I want to learn to play guitar, and write a song.
I want to smoke, just once.
I want to live in a dingy apartment, and barely scrape up the rent every month.
I want to drink coffee every day. Real coffee, not just sugary and super expensive frappucinos.
I want to pull a corny pickup line on a random person, and not crack up in the middle of it.
I want to go a whole day with no people time. None at all. No phone, no net, nada.
I want to chop my hair. A lot of it. Or, at least stop wearing it down all the time.
I want to leave for the day without looking in the mirror, at all.
I want to leave for the day, just a few times, with insane amounts of makeup. Loaded on, for serious.
And...I want to figure out how to not care, not a bit, except for when I want to.
That, my friends, would be magnificibulous.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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Teresa at 7:15 PM
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wSunday, September 14, 2003 |
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What a NARSTY surprise...! ;-D
I <3 my life. I've never used that little heart thing before. I don't half mind it.
Today I woke up. Then I ate french toast. Then I went back to bed but couldn't fall asleep. Then I got up again. Then I made plans with Clairebear. Then I did Chem. Then I went to Clairsey's house. The original plan was to go home for 5:30 mass at St. Gabe's, but we realized how stupid that was seeing as we're both Catholic, and I ended up going to St. Vincent's. We had a good time walking to Caribou, seeing Alex and sich, and then chilling around the house, and then off to church (ah, singing in the car :-) ). St. Vincent's rocks my socks, actually. The homily was good. Oh yeah, and it smells so good in there. Seriously, yall. It smells like some reallly good cologne or something, I dunno. But man. If I wasn't teaching at St. Gabe's, I'd so switch just for the smell. :-P And, props on the music. Did anyone else know that Claire Elizabeth can sing? And afterwards, she got recruited for her mad horn skillz, lol.
And then, back here.
And now, off to Fuddrucker's.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 7:03 PM
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I am angry with the world.
Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck have split up.
That just kinda sucks.
They were supposed to be all cute and rich and happy together forever.
Good gracious, what is this world coming to?
ARGH.
And now, off to Clairebear's.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 2:42 PM
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Oh yeah, for the 9th, happy birthday TJ!
and for yesterday, happy birthday charlie.
dude, everyone's turning sixteen. Meow, no fair.
as chris so kindly pointed out yesterday, just a year and a third or so to go.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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Teresa at 10:16 AM
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wSaturday, September 13, 2003 |
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We're at the top of the world...
Today has rocked my socks, to be sure.
I woke up early and saved the world. Well, not quite, but close. Went to Joshua's Farm, which is this place that provides animal interaction for disabled kids and the elderly. Dug up a silt fence (this black rubber netting stuck into the ground with stakes to prevent soil runoff), and then dug a new trench to put it in somewhere else. Then moved a whole bunch of heavy fence posts, then moved some more heavy rocks in a wheelbarrow. I'm gonna be sore tomorrow, yo, but it's all good.
Then came home, took a nap, got online, took a shower, talked to people, watched some mtv, and went to ruby tuesday's. It was a really good time. I am in a great mood, despite being incredibly tired. Also, things between me and Deeds are kinda screwed right now, and I can't figure out why.
I'm sure it'll work itself out, as most things in my life seem to.
Sometimes I think I try to call things too quickly, and maybe...well, maybe I can't explain just what I mean in this place and time. But, I'm sure if you ask me, I'll be happy to elaborate. Assuming you have "security clearance", to borrow Claire's phrasing, lol.
...And it sure feels right.
I'm listening to juliana theory- we're at the top of the world nonstop. such a feelgood song...all should download.
I'm exhausted.
Time to make a very sad, and very Ib-y list of stuff that has to be done tomorrow.
Humanities- Proverbs sheet. I'll do a bit of the bible jazz as well.
Chem- graph for the lab. I think that's it...I better call someone to check up on that one though.
Math- nothing!, woohoo. Cept for, I best be getting some studying done. And calling Alex about major studying for Wednesday's test. The ass of which must be kicked.
Physics- I better do some contract shiz. Which, I'm sure, would work better if I had the sheet. Which, since I don't, means that I will be looking for someone with a scanner like crazy. Or, someone who wants to come on over and bring the sheet.
OR I could meet Claire at church, perhaps. We'll see.
Um, Tuesday.
Humanities- once again, nothing.
Drama- nothing, I don't think.
Gym, nothing of course, Spanish- ack, I remember her telling us....something. I'll hafta check the planner tm.
So tomorrow will be a day of phone, piano, a walk with my cd player, homework, and just a general feelgoodness, I expect.
I am feeling so...chill right now. And at least for a while, I intend for it to stay that way. This week has been an exercise in life, and I am lovin it. There's so much room to breathe, room to move, room to live.
...On the top of the world
Here tonight.
Ah.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 11:18 PM
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wFriday, September 12, 2003 |
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Ah, parabolas. This morning was so crappy. Woke up at like 4:30 to do homework that the rents wouldn't let me finish last night...world history map, some studying. And took a shower in the morning, which is a pain in the booty what with wet hair during breakfast. Irritates the heck outta me, personally.
Then came the car ride to school with Mom. Enough said.
And THEN, to top it all off, I realize I've forgotten my map at home. So ran and called Dad to bring it to me, which he didn't manage to do till like 12:30.
Uhm, humanities was fine. I kicked that quiz's ass. Go me, I needed something to go right. Drama was cool...test wasn't bad, focus circle (iloveit!), then talking with elbie...er, watching the Sheik. :-) Gym was actually fine...just chilling with lauren. Lunch, a good time. The 'stampede'...ran around with Jamie (TIC TAC TOE TWO OF THEM IN A ROW!), signed up for Global, some leadership thing with Lauren Voler, and muckrakers, on Jamie's command. And stole some cookies from another club. :-) Spanish, good times. 92 on the first part of the test, fine with me. And then La Catrina. And then...oh yeah, getting a wonderful workout with Stern by running all over the place trying to get my map to Mr. Wiggs. Anyone who ever needs him at the end of the day, he's in S, not LA. So yeah, keep that in mind.
Made the bus in the end :-), came back to dd's, came back home, went back to dd's, went to cotswold, came back and we all watched valentine. It was an awesome time...such a comfy group, man i love these girls. Oh yeah, despite the fact that I almost went into hysterics over the entire scaaaaaaariness of the whole movie. :-P
Couldn't stay for the sleepover due to the rents, but whatever.
Came home, talked to the girls on the phone, and hopefully it'll all work out.
man, did i mention how much i love them?
As for now, I gotta get some sleep before my comm service shiz tomorrow. Ten on a Friday night, pathetic. :-P
Some things in this world, you just can't change
Some things you can't see until it gets too late.
Baby, baby, baby, when all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world.
Maybe, maybe, maybe, you'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home.
I got a hole in me now
I got a scar I can talk about.
She keeps a picture of me
In her apartment in the city.
Some things in this world, man they don't make sense.
Some things you don't need until they leave you
Then the things that you miss, you say
Baby, baby, baby, when all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world.
Maybe, maybe, maybe, you'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home...
For God's sakes, turn around.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 10:09 PM
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wThursday, September 11, 2003 |
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Dancing where the stars go blue
Dancing where the evening fell
Dancing in your wooden shoes
And a wedding gown
Dancing out on Seventh Street
Dancing through the underground
Dancing little marionette
Are you happy now?
Where do you go when you're lonely?
Where do you go when you're blue?
Where do you go when you're lonely?
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue.
Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
And a lullabye.
Where do you go when you're lonely?
Where do you go when you're blue?
Where do you go when you're lonely?
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue.
When the stars go blue.
When the stars, when the stars go blue.
When the stars go blue.
When the stars go blue.
Stars go blue.
When the stars go blue.
Where do you go?
When you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue?
Where do you go
When you're lonely?
I'll follow you, follow you, follow you, follow you.
Where do you go?
Hey, yeah
Where do you go
When you go.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 9:26 PM
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Can't remember
what went wrong last September
but I'm sure you'd remind me
if you had to...
Today is the perfect September day. I refuse to call it fall yet, cause...somehow, it's not. But, it's getting there. :-P
I love this in-between weather. It's beautiful, the stuff of life and memories and dreams and, of course, music.
Ah. The word for today is...poignant.
Life is made out of moments, not days, or weeks, or years, or decades, or the thing as a whole.
It's just a collection of things like a cozy picture, or lying in the quad with Claire and Jamay, or falling asleep on your best friend's couch.
September means slipping into routines, the comfortability of it all. and it is so typical, and predictable.
But so...yummy.
And I'm wearing my old favorite jeans that I bought before a football game last September, and my Barringer sweatshirt, and I'm going to go outside and do my world history homework.
And right now, everything is juuuust fine. :-D
And it's alright
If you don't wanna go home
And it's alright
If you don't wanna be alone, no, no
And it's alright
If you don't wanna go home
I understand, I understand, I understand...
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 6:32 PM
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wWednesday, September 10, 2003 |
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Miamigirl1288 (6:07:54 PM): do you ever get sad cause you're so fat stern?
climberman208 (6:08:48 PM): i do sometimes but then its nice bc i can just wipe the tears off with my fat
climberman208 (6:11:29 PM): it really is nice.
You know how sometimes, everything goes wrong, and then you get home and look back on the day, and you're like "wow, today actually rocked"?
Today is not one of those days.
It's more like almost everything was quite nice, but when you get back home and look over it all, you realize how much stuff really sucks, for no apparent reason.
Well, I take that back.
The reason's apparent, alright, it's just not worth talking about it.
Humanities was alright, star trek and such- drama, we analyzed everyone's walks. that was a little weird. but whatever. - first lunch was aight. the time in the audi was a blast, actually. trying to do my spanish homework and act like i'm paying attention and write all over people's hands, all at the same time. third lunch was so-so...talked to will for a bit, sold my booty, and observed the magic of claire's mancouch. Oh, and then lay in the grass for a bit myself. Spanish was ok. The test sucked. I don't know why everyone thought it was easy.
I have like no homework tonight...which should be majorly cheering me up, but it's not. I'm gonna go put on something comfy and then I gotta go to red cross. And then back here, probably to get some of Friday's work done.
I can't describe this feeling...just like everything's screwed up and boring, and always will be.
Although I know it's not the case...
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 6:20 PM
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wTuesday, September 09, 2003 |
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Well, Tess, that was stupid.
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Today's been alright, a parabola with the upside from about 3:30-5:30. And now, I am putting off my homework like it's the plague, which it really is. After this, I swear I'm gonna do my index card. And then it'll just be drama collages and spanish studying, which I can do some of during 5th period while I'm NOT IN GYM hallelujah. :-D
Your name :: Teresa
Age :: working on it :-P
What do you look like :: uhm? most of yall have seen me. if you havent, please go away. now. thanks.
How do you act :: like me? this is really not a fun survey right now. ok, better than homework. -continues...-
+ Basics +
Are you emotional :: Hahahahahaaa. But at least I know it. :-D
Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few of them :: Yeah, depending on my mood. Time of Your Life, I will remember you, train-drops of jupiter, and various others. Like I said, really depends on the frame of mind.
What about movies :: Duh. The cheesy parts, where everyone else throws popcorn and laughs? Yeah, I'm crying. :-D
What emotion do you usually feel :: Hrm...actually, I don't know. In class, it's mostly just a mix of restlessness and tiredness. There's usually an undertone of relative happiness...but once again, depends.
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out :: Disappointment...I really think that's the most crushing emotion of all. Most of the time, when I do, it's a mix of like...a fight with Deeds or the rents and just tiredness. But I've done it for real a couple of times...end of 8th and leaving camps both get it.
How many times have you done that :: whoops, see above. :-P
Where do you cry :: On my bed, in the bathroom if somewhere other than home.
Do you hate crying :: not all the time. sometimes you really just haaave to. Plus, sometimes you cry cause you're happy. :-) Which is the bestest.
Do you like it when others cry :: Er, not usually.
Do make people cry :: Rarely. When I do, it's usually Gabby or Chad. And they bring it upon themselves, so there.
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty :: Yeah, actually, come to think of it...
Who looks good when they cry :: practically nobody.
How else do you express sadness :: haha, in 5th grade, i used to run away on the playground. I'd just get upset and I'd just run off over to the other side of the field. :-P Nowadays, I guess just getting really quiet or leaving wherever I'm at.
Are you sad all the time :: No...I mean, I guess in a way, but I'm not thinking sad thoughts or anything.
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad :: people pissing me off...? and being tired.
What do you do when you're angry :: i actually do see red, if i'm mad enough. Usually, confront whoever. Sometimes, just cry. lol.
How short is your temper :: Depends...on person, situation, etc.
How long does it take you to calm down :: Depends. I actually think the longest I've ever been mad is like 72 hours...at Arun/Lauren this one time last year.
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad :: er...I kinda screw up when I'm mad, cause I'm realllly impulsive. Prolly just something to piss the familia off, tho.
Do you freak out when others are angry :: I don't think so...?
Out of the following, which one describes the level of anger you usually feel: annoyed, frustrated, angry, furious, hatred, about to go insane :: frustrated.
Has anyone ever recomded anger management to you :: no.
What's the worst thing someone's done to you that made you mad :: break my trust. in various ways.
Do you anger people :: Not on purpose...well, not usually on purpose. hah.
+ Joy +
How often are you happy :: Most of the time.
What makes you happy :: things going my way? friends, family, chocolate, shopping, vacation, pretty weather.
What do you do when you're happy :: Laugh a lot.
How optimistic are you :: Pretty, i think.
Do happy people make you mad :: rarely. even when i'm sad and they're happy...it just makes me wistful, not mad.
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy :: Pretend they're not? I don't know...
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone, including your enemies and the bugs :: Of course. :-D
Ever been so happy you cried :: Haha, yeah. And lately, I've taken to randomly laughing at myself.
Do you smile a lot :: don't notice, sorry. :-P
Hug people a lot :: never enough. :-D
Kiss people a lot :: depends on the person...? :-P
Who really makes you happy :: :-X
Do the simple things make you happy :: most definitely.
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy :: yeah, i try. :-P
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared :: usually, scream. Or squeal. Or something pathetic like that :-).
What scares you :: bugs and rape. Yall know the drill, fo sho.
Do you like scaring people :: haha yeah. but not as much as they like to scare me. :-P
Do you like the thrill of being frightened :: sometimes, in a way.
Does fear accompany anger in your case :: not that I can think of.
Ever been so scared you could barely breathe :: Not that I recall.
How often do you panic :: Not that much...only when I feel the urge to, lol.
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else in your life so far :: I don't know. September 11th kinda shook my world. but...nothing's really hit incredibly close to home.
What do you do to calm your nerves :: call a friend.
Do rollercoasters scare you :: Nah, not really. Used to though, insanely so.
+ What do you do +
When the emotion sucks :: Eat ice cream/ phone a friend? I don't know. Cheer myself up.
When the emotion rocks :: Try and hold onto it. Play good music. :-P
When there's no emotion :: Get freaked? Those were dumb. :-D
+ Would you rather +
Never feel again :: Sometimes I think it'd be easier but...no.
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life :: anger.
Be happy forever and never experience the bad times :: ...no. The good times are nothing without the bad. "All about the experience". Trust me, I know.
Cause misery :: no
Feel misery :: no
Be alone :: no
Be with everyone you know :: yay? :-D
Okay, index card. I can do this. Focus.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 8:19 PM
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