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Things in this here world of mine are best described as a pretty little Alanis Morissette song come to life.
It's been a long day.
A little too ironic...yeah I really do think
The way memories are coming into my head today and the way the outside world is so synchronized and the timing of the music thats flitting through my head...
I'm feeling so cynical today. Your anger don't impress me...It always rains like hell on the loser's day parade And random, did I mention random? Praise God for the Goo Goo Dolls and Alanis Morissette, is what I have to say. Also the radio is angering me. Ever feel like every song is the same? Yeah. And we wake up in the breakdown of the things we never thought we could be. The bio test was easier than i expected, and drama was nothing, and ff was just bundles of fun and vote for priya...and elp was just another elp class.
things in my head are sort of running together right now...I'd really like to lay out but ya know its like 7 soooo.
and i wanted to be all you need, somehow here is gone math homework to be done and i'll ip for a while and ive been meaning to make a collage and put it on the inside of my gorgeous little green notebook...
that I would be good even if i did nothing
that I would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that I would be good if i got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds...
that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when i was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy...
that I would be good even if I lost sanity...
That I would be good...
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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This humored me greatly.
DD laughed too.
A little bit.
{Note: This has been edited for typing errors, as anyone who's EVER imd josh can certainly understand.} :-)
Ijockmo1 [11:15 PM]: so good night teresa may you dream of many good grades and a high power position in a political office lol or dream of fuzzy bunnies or sumthing that makes you happy
ah.
~~always~-*Teresa*
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geeta0207 [8:23 PM]: i'm sorry:-\
Miamigirl1288 [8:24 PM]: thats okay babe
geeta0207 [8:25 PM]: yay i'm a babe
geeta0207 [8:25 PM]: i feel special
Gimme the beat, boys,
And free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away...
~~always~-*Tess*
;-D
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~Anorexic Men Don't Eat Cake~
--radio--
Aughhhhhh. As in, total ackness. I am at dd's house,and i have not been home since this morning, and i do not GET to go home until my dad comes and picks me up after work which will be around 7:30. And I think I am going to scream, because I have SO much work to do, and...i've discovered that soccer is completely and totally the #1 priority in my house and my parents can't seem to understand that just because i dont have something tangible like that, something im totally dedicated to (ideally a sport), doesn't mean my life isnt important too.
Also, Horowitz's biology test is absolutely going to kill me. The word 'screwed' doesn't even begin to cover it.
Also, piano lesson tomorrow, and i can't get home to my music until tonight, and i desperately need to practice.
Also, I have an awful headache.
BUT i'm going to stop bitching now, and ignition just came on the radio :-).
~~~~~~~
The rest of the day can be summed up by saying...
half day, coca-cola pants, math sucks, spanish sucks, debate rocks, money is nice, hooray for showmars at the food court where they let you get kids meals no matter how old you are, cherry anklets, who WEARS a skirt this short?, laying out in a cami in front of dillards ;-) with deeds, "sugar", "chocolate cake", guns on the phone?, hwitz is a virus, "specificize" (say: spa-sif-i-size), and making lean pockets in the fridge.
Ah, you want a piece of funniness?
at the food court...
DD: Ow, ow, ow, ow!!!!!
Teresa: Where is he?!
Yeppers its all fun and games round here.
Today I don't feel like DD is my best friend, I honestly feel like she's my sister.
Ah theres ipping to be done and i really have to find something to make my energy level go back up because its hot and stuffy and what i want more than anything is to float in the middle of the ocean and close my eyes and feel the sun on my back and a nice breeze in my hair and...
siiiiigh.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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oooooooooooookay.
now, i'm not saying that everybody as an individual has to be cheerful just because i am.
but good lord the world itself, as a whole, sure does need a good old dose of teresa positivity medicine
whatever happened to just plain old cheerful songs on the radio?
siiiigh
whats this world coming to?
~~always~-*teresa*
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got.
~Inquietude~
--perfect day, collective soul--
Do not ask me why I am in such a gorgeously blossoming mood, because I really and truly couldn't tell you.
But I feel so amazing right now...everything is just under control and "okay" and for the first time in a long while, I feel like I am strong, and I can handle whatever comes next, and I'm ready and open and stable.
I'm not sure how long this is going to last so don't ruin it ;-) and it's not to say there aren't still things that weigh on my mind and bring me down but why focus on them when I really do have SO much to be thankful for?!
Little things have just made my day...writing notes and laughing with elbie during drama, talking to meg and rebekah and ian and elbie and laur during ff, running back to the 'libary' w/ elbie when we realized shed left my bio hwk in there, just generally doing nothing in bio and making a 94 on the hwk, and having a good ole time in elp.
After school laur and i went over to dd's. We stopped for wendy's on the way home and I got a nice dose of 'chfood' lol girls :-). Came home and ate, then went upstairs to listen to music and chat...I got to wear dd's coca-cola pants which just about made my day...it was a really good time. Then we went downstairs and watched 'bring it on'. It was fun, a nice light crazy movie to make it all okay. Back to her room to eat chocolate and butterscotch chips and cookies and avoid songs on the radio and hula hoop...james taylor and sunshine in the window and lyric notebooks and 5th grade diaries...'happy fat women' and self esteem boosters and knowing that you've just got awesome friends....apologizing for past mistakes and sitting on the roof and cleaning rooms as always and...my glass ain't half full y'all.
My cup runneth over.
Got home around 7 to get online and do a bit of chatting...phone with geeta...cheesy pasta...ignition remix and 'man i feel like a woman' and 'mexico'...some ip editing (more to be done) and making plans for tomorrow aftn and talking to dd hannah laur on the phone and math homework to be done and finding that i am linked to both claire's and ian's blogs, which just makes me feel sort of fuzzy and…yeah.
Not much more to be said, except for that there is a good person in my life who is going through some not-so-nice ‘veggies’, so to speak, right now and, although i don’t know if she’ll read this, i want her to know that i am absolutely and unconditionally here for her. Yeppers.
Ah and so i end up with another impossibly long entry that nobody will read.
But it's all happiful.
Nothing can get me down today.
The sun will finally shine on me
And clouds will drift away
There's something that's in store in me
That's my brighter day
time for ipping and math
yuuuummy
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I spose that's that.
There's more to be said but my mind is rather blank as to how to explain right now.
So you, my wonderful friends, will have to wait until tomorrow so that I can find the real right lyrics to be posted.
And...blah.
I feel like a deflated balloon.
But I do believe in things being for the best, and when they are out of your control, all you can do is cope.
Which I certainly will do.
So float on upwards dear little Teresa balloon :-)
ladidadida
I sure do need more sleep.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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mmm hmmmmmm.
Hot showers to sing in and hopping out to a shining sun and feel good music and herbal essences in my hair.
Worn in jeans with fuzzy slippers and a big old quilt wrapped around it all.
Now would be a really really good time to just freeze the world
and not let this mood slip away
i've closed the door and the problems in my life are no way coming into my head
life is what you make of it and nothin's gonna get me down for now
'cause right this very instant, against all odds,
life is just---
yummy yummy yummy.
Even my biology book looks friendly.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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I won't worry my life away
I won't, I won't
I won't worry my life away.
and that's a goodnight and sweetest of dreams
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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these are possibly the best lyrics i have come across in a very long time
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry
Ya gotta be...
Ya gotta be bad
Ya gotta be bold
Ya gotta be wiser
Ya gotta be hard
Ya gotta be tough
Ya gotta be stronger
Ya gotta be cool
Ya gotta be calm
Ya gotta stick together
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My, oh my...
Ya gotta be bad
Ya gotta be bold
Ya gotta be wiser
Ya gotta be hard
Ya gotta be tough
Ya gotta be stronger
Ya gotta be cool
Ya gotta be calm
Ya gotta stick together
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day
Time asks no questions
It goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
Can't stop it if you tried to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
...Ya got to
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counting
Don't be ashamed to cry
Ya gotta be bad
Ya gotta be bold
Ya gotta be wiser
Ya gotta be hard
Ya gotta be tough
Ya gotta be stronger
Ya gotta be cool
Ya gotta be calm
Ya gotta stick together
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day
yup yup
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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~Yay~
--ignition remix--
I'm in such a fantastic mood right this very instant, you don't even know.
I think that going on that trip was absolutely the best thing that could've happened for me.
Slept about two hours Thursday night, only because I fell asleep while doing my math, and made it to 3 and 3/4 pages...which i fudged on and pretended I had four...I think I'm actually going to have to add a whole new literary device if I want to make it to 7. Ack.
Anyway, made it through those crappy first two periods...anliker picked on me as always in english but i had fun pretending to peer edit. :-) Then we were off...four hours of listening to my cds and sleeping with a subway tuna in the middle...and we got there, and my grandparents' new house is gorgeous, and they have the most awesome bathroom in the history of the world because it is like almost as big as mr fuller's classroom with a wall of mirrors and gorgeous paintings and a huge whirlpool tub thing and long big old sinks and marble counters and...wow. haha yeah that must sound so weird but its really awesome.
Then i slept until my aunt marcella and her friend diane came over with jay and jackie (my step-grandmother's son and his wife), and then i had to change into my dress. ugh. anyway we ate shrimp and cheesy crackers and gave grandpa his presents, and went to the restaurant, which was gorgeous and gorgeously expensive...i ordered a fried seafood platter but it's one of those places where you barely end up eating the entree cuz the stuff they bring before is SO yummy. ie: salads, crabcakes, garlic rolls, flakey bread...yum. really just a fun meal and topped off with some amazing cheesecake (don't even want to think about the nutritional content of THAT) but hey, 'ch'-foods lol laur.
fell asleep on the couch in the carolina room with my radio and jeans on...woke up at 4:30 this morning to leave at 5 to make it home by 9 for my brother's soccer game in hickory at 10:30. There's something almost...surreal about driving through sheets of rain to the sound of Michelle Branch at 5:30 on a Saturday morning. Half of you is absolutely bitching out and the other half is just glad to have the time to be and think and sort stuff out in your head. Which I did. And I am feeling SO awesome right now.
Anyway, I'm going to go watch a disney movie maybe. if anyone happens to read this and wants to go to the y or was planning to or anything gimme a call or im me. i have to work off the cheesecake :-).
wow that's a long post
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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You guys have cheered me up so much today. You don't even know how glad I am to have y'all!
gigharbor1102 [7:25 PM]: they idolize Ford
gigharbor1102 [7:25 PM]: like the car guy
gigharbor1102 [7:25 PM]: they make the T sign across their chests
gigharbor1102 [7:25 PM]: and they cut the tops off crosses and now have Ts
we're all just full of the funnies today, aren't we?
ahhh the usefulness of the ip...
gigharbor1102 [7:27 PM]: we ned to have one massive orgy-porgy
Miamigirl1288 [7:27 PM]: whoa now
Miamigirl1288 [7:27 PM]: where did THAT come from?!
gigharbor1102 [7:28 PM]: its in my book
yep. should i start yet? i think not. I wonder if I can get all five pages done in the...8 and a half hours I have left...?
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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--stephy on the phone and ignition remix :-) --
Today has just been a really nice day.
It had its ups and downs, thats for SURE, but it was still just a really nice day.
And last night was really good for me. I stayed up till like 1:30 talking on and off to deeds and charlie and laura and watching boy meets world and doing my persuasive, and as tired as i was, and as bad as i'd been feeling, all i could think was that for a moment, everything was perfect. I was up late and I couldn't find a stat in the world but everything was great. Because that's the way it was supposed to be. I don't know if that makes any sense but...
We got a seat change in drama and now i sit between elbs and josh and it's nice. and in ff we took the r&j which was some hard crap, and anliker chewed me out for no reason...but ya know. lunch was...uhm interesting. all i can say is that we desperately need a group pick-me-up. seriously y'all. and bio was very much bad. wow thats weird grammar. horowitz is just a bitch and i absolutely cannot stand her...and stuff. but it's all okay.
and elp was really good, i had fun. i just laughed a lot. and that always makes me feel good.
after school was probably the best part of my day. i was going to just go sit in the libary ;-) and update and listen to my walkman but i ran into priya and elena and i just had some really good convos with them and christie and christine. it was some good mgd reminiscing too :-). just another way that some things never change.
my moods are really weirding me out lately...i have a huge ip to write and i'll probably be up till like 2 in the morning and yet...i'm feeling awesome. not that i mind. tomorrow i've only got to make it through two periods and then i'm off to grandpa's 80th birthday. it should be fun. yep.
And here's some perfect lyrics for it all.
Being grown up
Isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters is just
Following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
~"In This Diary", The Ataris <-- now there's a song you should download
also muchos gracias to nancy for introing me to it.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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Well, I was feeling really, really good until about 15 seconds ago.
Amazing how sometimes it takes the tiniest little things.
But I still had a good day...
All these little things and funny people just made my day.
ie: spanish going by the fastest it has all year
ie: getting cookies at lunch
ie: all the songs coming on the radio with absolute perfect timing
ie: spencer's 'golf story'
haha so yeah. and now i'm screwed what with a persuasive speech and visual to do and absolutely nada so far...its so unbelievably tempting to pull a 'mental health day' tomorrow.
and piano class which is just another screwy part of life...
but ah well. this one line of james taylor lyrics just keeps running through my head
...i've seen sunny days that i thought would never end...
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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note: its not my fault that the stupid blogger doesnt feel like listening to me and italicizing right. (see previous entry)
what else is new? :-)
ALSO here's the UPDATE
1- american idol: they made a mean monica lewinsky joke about her hosting mr. personality but it amused me greatly. trenyce sang have you ever and its a great song but i really didn't like the way she did it. joshua screwed himself over. carmen needs to just go and get voted off already. way to go mr big teddy bear and clay! AND kimberly locke! yes!
2- School day gets extended by 12 minutes every day starting next week. no, i don't know how it works either. hrm...?
3- WAY TO GO, AZ! everyone congratulate our awesome softball aislinn for scoring the run that won mp the game today. yay!
4- a big old wow for 24 which was quite interesting, although i had to stop every 30 seconds to get the rents to explain what was happening to me. its generally a good idea to start watching and actually pay attention from the beginning of the season. just another piece of hypocritical advice.
5- tomorrow's another day of ext hr. ill work on ip and listen to the wonderful music that keeps me goin and itll all work out with time. yep yep. hope you're doing good too...
~~always~-*tess*
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There is a book that all of you should read, and it is called speak.
It's absolutely fantastic, - a little scary but...it will really make you think...and so you should read it.
Also, if you want to be my absolute favorite person, you will ask me if you can borrow it and gain about a billion points on teresa's scale of wonderful people.
and here is a cynical little sampling...-
It is my first morning of high school. I have seven new notebooks, a skirt I hate, and a stomachache.
Older students are allowed to roam until the bell, but ninth-graders are herded into the auditorium.
I grab a seat. Another wounded zebra turns and smiles at me. She's packing at least five grand worth of orthodontia, but has great shoes. "I'm Heather from Ohio," she says. "I'm new here. Are you?" I don't have time to answer. The lights dim and the indoctrination begins.
-THE FIRST TEN LIES THEY TELL YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL
1. We are here to help you.
2. You will have enough time to get to your class before the bell rings.
3. The dress code will be enforced.
4. No smoking is allowed on school grounds.
5. Our football team will win the championship this year.
6. We expect more of you here.
7. Guidance counselors are always available to listen.
8. Your schedule was created with your needs in mind.
9. Your locker combination is private.
10. These will be the years you look back on fondly.
My first class is biology. I can't find it and get my first demerit for wandering the hall. It is 8:50 in the morning. Only 699 classes and 7 class periods until graduation.
Yep, just a taste.
hey i liked it
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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It's times like...right about...now that make me just wanna throw in the towel and forget about trying to keep my glass half full.
-And apparently, Horowitz didn't get the Don't Fuck With Teresa Today memo.
But everything can go absolutely wrong and I'll still do my damned best to keep a smile on my face and some laughter all around me...'cause the world is not going to take a break just so I can get ready for it to start turning again.
And I know that.
So I'm ready for whatever curveball gets thrown next.
Life is good if you want it to be.
~~Always~-*Tess*
;-D
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...Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
Try to tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think any more tonight...
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~Embers~
--'second chances', michelle branch--
There is so much to be said but I am at a loss for words that will still protect that comfortable vagueness which has made everything I post here..."ok". So I, and you, will have to settle for extended metaphors and puzzle pieces and symbolism and lyrics, and I'll trust that you know what I mean.
Or at any rate, what I want you to know of what I mean.
~
Today was...a day. With ups and downs and in betweens and...yeah.
So many songs and phrases and thoughts and ideas stuck in my head and twirling around so that I could hardly remember what was going on. The new math stuff makes no sense but then again what does. English is r&j and mrs anliker being her normal crazy self and sonnets on emotions..."banging your head against a brick wall" ;-)...spanish is banerjee the bitch and rearranged seats that put me next to all the same people i've been sitting with all year...lunch is a big mess of people and ideas and "well i heard..." and clearing things up on the outside that sure as hell aren't cleared on the inside...debate is typical mr west and the worn in jeans that are his mood swings and getting advice from spencer while we fill out busy work for mock trials...
And I don't have any homework for tomorrow so maybe I'll start on all the things that should be already done, like my persuasive and ip and sat cards...or maybe I'll sit and listen to music and talk on the phone and think.
Why can't it all be black and white?
Why can't we all just say what we mean?
But I'll be a hypocrite and post a bunch of lyric fragments but I'll be comfortably vague and it all comes back to worn in jeans.
It really makes me wonder why some things happen when they do.--
Time is creeping behind me, surrounding around me
Fading the words so desperately
Now give me a reason that I can believe in
Time is something you can't rewind
One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever--
And I wanna believe you. when you tell me that it'll be okay. yeah i try to believe you. but i don't. when you say that it's gonna be. it always turns out to be a different way. i try to believe you. not today... i don't know how to feel...i don't know what to say. tomorrow. tomorrow is a different day...maybe it's not too late. not today...
And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that it'll be okay
Yeah i try to believe you
Not today, today, today, today...
Tomorrow it may change.
~~always~-*Teresa*
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the lovely thing is...
csberryshortcake [9:38 PM]: haha...DONT MAKE ME COME OVER THERE!! oh and ill bring some hershey kisses and nail polish if you bring the music and magazines!
csberryshortcake [9:38 PM]: just doesnt work does it?
csberryshortcake [9:39 PM]: hmm
csberryshortcake [9:39 PM]: yeah, DONT MAKE ME COME OVER THERE!! *tough look* cuz i miss you SO much girl! *hug*
csberryshortcake [9:39 PM]: yeah, still doesnt work
...that some things never change.
And I never want them to.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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So much out there I should say but
Even if your heart would listen
Doubt I could explain
- "If You Don't, Don't", Jimmy Eat World
~~always~-*teresa*
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And, obviously, no one's online...because who gets online at 9 am on easter morning?
oh that's right, teresa does.
Today's Forecast: cloudy with possible showers in the morning, with a 50/50 chance of either sunlight or thunderstorms this afternoon. temps reaching record lows this evening.
--excuse my extended metaphors.
i just don't know how else to say it.
Happy Easter...or rather, hope your Easter Sunday turns out happier than mine inevitably will.
~~always~-*teresa*
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Things make absolutely zero sense right around now.
Apparently, it's my fault that my parents forgot that i eat dinner...
so here i am at 11 at night, munching on cheese nips and calling it a meal...
and the rents are mad.
And...just...stuff.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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ah. stayed up late listening to music and talking, and then woke up an hour late...made it to carowinds around 10:30...the one-speed-fits-all situations dad. ackness.
cyclone, top gun, vortex, etc, etc...tons of fun. id forgotten how much, to tell you the truth. and being the completely unpractical (is that a word) girls that we are, we rode the water rides too...im shivering thinking about it. my pants are soaked. top to bottom, soaked. like i took a shower with my clothes on. there isnt a dry spot to be found. but hey, we had fun. what's so bad about pneumonia anyway?
floods of memories of last year's big trip...laura and sara and nancy, and thinking about how different things are this year...saw megan...macarena on thunder road and singing our song "...friends...spring break...carowinds..."
good times, good times.
and now i'm at home cozied up in my fleece pants and mom's old fleece hoodie and my fleece blankets wondering why we don't believe in heat in this house and...
im just gonna let it all be.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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we're not gonna ride the BIKES...
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DD came over around 6 and we watched some sorority life and ate dinner and played cards and watched what i like about you and now it's time to figure out tomorrow's schedule and chill and...we'll find something amusing.
We always do.
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HAAAAAHAAAAAA.
Dancnqueen454 [4:40 PM]: i find humor in other peoples misfortune. am i a bitch?
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church, movie, blah blah blah...
and if i had a list of FOUR people who made me laugh, yes charlie, youd be on it.
time to call the deeds and figure out what we're gonna do...
where's the sun when you need it?
Dancnqueen454 [4:22 PM]: im doing homework on a friday, its raining, and i just ate the nastiest yogurt in the world.
Dancnqueen454 [4:23 PM]: so yes. its unanimous. today sucks.
Miamigirl1288 [4:23 PM]: im sorry but that is so funny
Dancnqueen454 [4:24 PM]: yes well my humor comes best when im about to barf...
but even though everything is really screwed up right now, you guys still make it better somehow.
it doesn't even make sense.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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well damn the rain. my friday has gone from a great day at carowinds with deeds to another "family day"...church for stations of the cross at noon, some random movie at 2. i guess the movie could be fun, after all, the rents are paying...deeds and i will do a sleepover tonight and prolly go tomorrow...ah well. i should go do math hwk...as laur would say, "the life of an ib-er". the things id give for today to be sunny...
-ironic but great lyrics...
Good day sunlight
I'd like to say how truly bright you are
You don't know me but I know you
You're my favorite star
Follow you I will so let's get moving
-"Who Needs Shelter", Jason Mraz
~~always~-*Tess*
;-D
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Mom woke me up at 10 and we all trudged off to meg-art, the little pottery painting place in cotswold...it was a disaster before it started, as anyone sane could've told you. we each picked our pieces and i took about an hour to paint my little round box with a moon and stars on it. it was crap but hey its a cute box so i could only do so much to destroy it :-). meanwhile my sister is possibly the slowest painter in the world, my brother freaks out about every single mistake (of which there are a lot), and my mom took about 45 minutes just to pick a piece to paint. also my family does not have a drop of artistic blood. I'm saying.
So I spent most of my morning wandering around old navy and whatnot waiting for everyone else to finish...family fun. haha. my mom was the last one to finish but she gave me some $ so us kids ate lunch at atlanta bread co while we waited. it was yummy.
came home and finished my book. it's called better than running at night, and it's sort of weird, but you should totally read it. its deep.
also it might rain tomorrow...i dont know what that's gonna mean for me and deeds.
Things To Do:
By Monday- math homework, r&j work
ASAP (aka by later next week)- ip rough, pers speech
...well i am royally screwed but, as always, i will find a way to do it.
like i told laur once...i'm not afraid of not being able to stay up and not finish my work, i'm afraid of looking at the clock and realizing its time to get ready for school and not being done.
we be ib.
Flowing like water in a crimson melody,
the orange plastic sun is shining,
and the truth so hard to see,
the rain of your existence is falling down on me,
and the soap suds spread like a disease from my washing machine.
- "Washing Machine", Michelle Branch
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wWednesday, April 16, 2003 |
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Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
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watched a walk to remember last night, and it was a pretty good pick-me-up just as i'd thought...also the music in that movie is fantastic. download you by switchfoot. you wont regret it.
woke up 11ish this morning to find that the cleaning guy was upstairs and i was home alone so i was a little freaked but its all good. watched tv and did nothing till 1:30 or so and then i went and layed out and read and it was fun. and im definitely actually getting some tan. yayness.
came inside to get online and just chill for a while...like i said, i really really really wanted to do something tonight, and even though i didnt get out of the house laur came over and we picked up frappucinos at starbucks and ate yummy veggie pizza and watched blue crush. it was my first time seeing it and i really liked it. the interesting thing was that laur was more for her winning the contest and i was more for her getting the guy, which, as laur pointed out, says a lot about the diffs between us.
so she's gone now and i was thinking about actually getting some sleep so we'll see how that works out...tomorrow i'll sleep in, get some sun, maybe go for a walk, possibly get some hwk done, and then ive got a passover dinner to go to at the neighbor's house. friday'll be a fun day assuming all works out.
nothings going quite right but im just trying to keep cool and positive and...let it all figure itself out.
i just try to ignore all this crap and then when i let myself think about it i get this awful hollow feeling and...
who knows.
~~always~-*Tess*
;-D
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sorry for posting so much lately, by the way...
so i went for a walk and ate dinner and watched tv with dad and talked to chris and now i'm off to watch a movie and have some icecream...
...I feel like #1 but I'm last in line...
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Fooray for surveys!
Also, my hair is definitely shorter. 2 inches to be exact. i think i like it though...we'll see.
[my name is] Teresa
[height] 5'5" working on 5'6"
[in the morning i am] either totally exhausted or really positive
[all i need is] friends, pen, and journal
[love is] a happiness.
[if i could see one person right now] deeds, chris, or steph. better yet, all of the above. :-)
[i'm afraid of] one word comes to mind, and that word is...repetitive.
-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[pictured your crush naked] nope
[actually seen your crush naked] nope
[cried when someone died] yes. of course.
[lied] of course.
-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi] lemonade.
[flowers or candy] both ;-)
[tall or short] as courtney said, yes, tall guys. :-)
-W I T H . P E O P L E-
[what do you notice first] eyes on guys. hair on girls.
[last person you slow danced with] greg i think.
[worst question to ask] *cough*ian*cough*...what size jeans are YOU?
[makes you laugh the most] mrs anliker. sad but true. she's hilarious.
[makes you smile] Yes. almost everyone.
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them] lol see below...oh yeah and horowitz, you know, that I WANT TO KILL YOU RIGHT NOW feeling...? ;-)
[who do you have a crush on] if you don't know, I'M not going to tell you ;-)
[has a crush on you] haha
[easiest to talk to] laur, deeds, steph, everyone...you listen, i'll talk. :-)
-D O . Y O U . E V E R-
[Stay on aim, waiting for someone special to IM] i admit it.
[save AOL/aim conversations] haha sad but true.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex] nah.
[cry because of someone saying something to you] of course.
-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] not really.
[been rejected] yes.
[rejected someone] yes.
[used someone] unfortunately, yes.
[been cheated on by someone] i dont think so.
[cheated on someone] nope :-)
[done something you regret?] who hasn't?
-W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone] mom. haha. and before that, steph. i think.
[hugged] gabby
[you instant messaged] laur
[instant messaged you?] laur
[you laughed with] the hair cutting lady
-D O . Y O U / / A R E . Y O U-
[color your hair] nope
[habla espanol] si
[smoke cigarettes] nope, the whole breathing thing is actually really working for me :-)
[obsessive] yep, "i can be"
[could you live without the computer] yes. but i sure wouldn't want to.
[what's your favorite food] mmm spaghetti. and string cheese. and m&m double doozies. and chocolate chip cookie dough (icecream).
[whats your favorite fruit] yep, watermelon...and grapes sometimes.
[drink alcohol] nope.
[like watching sunrises or sunset] of course.
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain] it depends. but more likely, emotional. like i've said, there's nowhere you can go.
[trust others way too easily] it really depends. i get intuitive first impressions, and that means a lot.
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why
Because
The remedy is the experience
It is a dangerous liaison.
I say the comedy is that its serious
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all
Amounts to nothing in the end.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't, I won't.
- "The Remedy", Jason Mraz - - an awesome song...
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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Well, it's no use pretending that the backyard concrete pool deck is the beach, because it's not...but i have succeeded in tanning and i am greatly pleased. :-) Also, I'm reading knocked out by my nunga-nungas, which for those of you who don't know, is the incredibly humorous sequel to at&ffs and on the bright side im dating a sex god. so its good stuff. now its off to practice the stupid piano and then im going to get my hair cut. 2 or 3 inches most likely. laur thinks 1, mom and deeds think 3. ah the painful dilemmas ;-). ideas?
the sun has made me really happy.
also my back is almost sort of maybe bronzish?
and sheryl crow's soak up the sun came on the radio and it was just perfect timing if such a thing ever existed...
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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Well we stayed up late just talking and listening to music and talking some more...and woke up at 9 to take a walk, then came home for pancakes, talked some more, went on a longer (3 mile) walk to cvs, and came back and talked some more. ah yes, we defy pop culture in our simplistic neighborhood walks as opposed to the usual mall trips. fooray. im feeling really good. im going to do my r&j and then do my math hwk and then practice piano and then do a survey and then take a long walk and then talk on the phone or lay out or something...i'm feeling like walking a lot lately. also i really want to watch a walk to remember and ive been wanting to watch it for like the past two months but havent gotten around to it so im promising myself right now that either today or tomorrow i am GOING to watch it because i know itll put me in a really good mood. yes.
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I've been sittin' here
trying to find myself
i get behind myself
i need to rewind myself
looking for the payback
listen for the playback...
I feel like number one
but I'm last in line...
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that's gotta be the song of this sleepover...
~~always~-*Teresa*
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So it's been a pretty good day, I guess.
Called Laur around 3ish and we sort of randomly threw together an overnight. We were going to go skating or to goof off at celebration station or...something...but it sort of fell through, and we sort of let it. So I got over here around 4, glad to be away from mom, who's seriously having some issues lately...we got online, and talked, and chilled, and made cookies ;-) of course, and ate dinner, and then went for a really long walk. It was good. Bonding time. :-) Turned into a run towards the end, when she actually got us lost in her neighborhood...so we threw off our flip-flops, afraid her parents would freak if we got home late, and we're two teenage girls in shorts and tees carrying our shoes and running down the road...good times, good times. Got home, listened to the radio, sat out on the roof and ate cookies, talked some more and...now she's playing her flute. Very loudly. So I've got john mayer on max volume on her headphones...yeah.
Also, I was looking through my purse today and thinking about my season pass and I am flat broke. Very funny, really, since at the beginning of this spring I was thinking I'd do pretty well what with the clothing allowance. Ah well. I'll babysit like crazy and it'll all work out.
So hope your break is going well and whatnot...tomorrow im here till 12 and then back home for r&j and persuasive...
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if youre not in the mood for a bit of random surveyness as stolen from elbie, leave now.
:-)
i was gonna do some quizzes too but then i ... didnt. so thats that.
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Which do you prefer?
+ power rangers/ninja turtles: power rangers. i liked the yellow one.
+ boxers/briefs: boxers haha
+ Who Wants To Be A Millionare/The Weakest Link: weakest link
+ Men/Women: well men obviously but as friends and whatnot it really depends on the situation lol
+ Sunglasses/Hats: sunglasses, definitely
+ 2%/Skim: skim.
+ Spanish/French: spanish
+ AIM/MSN: AIM
+ Kazaa/Imesh: kazaa
+ 50 Cent/Eminem: neither really but i spose it can just be a tie
+ South Park/Simpsons: neither.
+ chap stick/lip balm: chap stick
+ Past/Present: present
+ Bugs Bunny/Mickey Mouse: mickey
How many times a day do you...
* play your favorite song: too many to count. ie, ive been up for 45 minutes and been listening to music nonstop and ive only been playing 3 songs, and ill probably play those same 3 about a billion more times before i leave the rec room soooo.
* eat: too many. and i dont keep count. so.
* get online(& How long): usually just once or twice but i stay on a long time. haha yes.
* Write: depends on my mood.
* Talk to someone: when theyre there to talk with.
* Shower: 1, we be normal
* Jump around in circles: 0
* Use the phone: um theres like 3 ppl i talk to on the phone so it depends if/when they call
* Lie: too many.
Favorites...
& Film Genre(s): chick flicks. "romantic comedy". :-D
& Item on your keychain: dont have one. lots of keychains on my backpack tho.
& Computer/Video Game: the sims i guess. dont really have one. the parents outlawed video games and its so unbelievably pathetic. poor little brother.
& Painter: georgia o'keeffe.
& Person (People): family, friends, you.
& Relative: i honestly dont know. it wouldve been abita i think. so.
& Font: arial and tahoma and lucida calligraphy
& Color for sheets: we have some white ones with blue dove thingies on em and theyre prettiful.
& Away message: yes, "insightful".
& Reason to miss school: faking sick never gets old
& Phrase/Quote: lyrics pieces..."i just can't remember to forget you", "There's so much out there I should say but even if your heart would listen, doubt i could explain", "Good things don't come to those who wait. Good things come to those who want something so bad, they can't wait."
& Way to relax: music and talking to friends
What would it be...
^ What superpower would you have: seeing into the future
^ What mythological being would you be: a mermaid. thats fun stuff.
^ What weapon would you use on Godzilla: who knows
^ What commercial would you get rid of: spam
^ What new holiday would you create: Teenager's Day, like Mother's Day, and Father's Day, only Teen's Day. hooray.
If you had _____ you would...
% Ten Million Dollars: buy a house on Cape Cod, visit somewhere exciting, save 3 million for life in general, and buy presents for all the people i care about. which just might be YOU.
% A hammer: put it in my dad's toolbox?
% Two toothpicks: throw them away
% A celebrity slave: um? well if it was one of the rich ones they could give me their money
% A pet monkey: tell it to go away and bother someone else. ie, my brother.
% An airplane: go on a big trip tomorrow instead of staying at home and thinking of all the ipping i should be doing.
% A movie theater: yes. cookie dough bites. yummy.
% Four dancing clowns: make a circus?
% A Mafia: give them to mrs anliker as a study subject
% A magical stick: be happy.
% Three flashlights and some cheese: have some friends over and play flashlight tag, after i eat the cheese.
% No power: be another little normal lost human being, which i am :-)
% To write a book: I would. and id enjoy it, too.
% A jungle: id send someone in there to get rid of all the bugs, and then id make a little house in the middle of it and go there to be alone. and id have my.own.room. and everything.
% A time machine: i wouldnt let myself change anything. it wouldnt be fair.
% One Dollar: id put it in my wallet thing.
% Lost the internet: get irritated because this survey would have to be redone and id never get inspired enough to do it again, and then id go downstairs and get a snack, watch a movie, call laur. who, speaking of which, shouldve called me an hour ago.
% No life: um?
% To live with someone you hate: id be pissed but hopefully id be able to stop hating them.
% Thirteen ghosts: send them off to play jokes on people :-)
% An obsession with cleaning your ears: ummm?
% Amnesia: this is a stupid question. id have amnesia. i wouldnt have anything TO do. i wouldnt get any input. i guess if i knew i was gonna get it though, id write down important stuff in a book, and id tell everyone that even if i forgot who they were, id always care about them. ah. yes.
Have you ever wished...
! That you were someone else(and who): of course. who hasnt.
! To be stuck on an island by yourself: no. i need people.
! For penguins to invade your city: nooo
! That the animals in the zoo would be free: nope
! That you were in Austrailia: haha that makes me think of AT&FFS (new zealand, australia, same diff), also heath ledger. but anyways, not really.
! To speak every language: sure
! For that one person to shut their trap: haha yes. sometimes myself. which brings me to john mayer.
! To get rid of pop-ups forever: not really. i mean, they pop-up, you press the x, theyre gone.
! That you didn't know anything: yes. jewel lyrics "why you gotta tell me if im hated". thats a big issue with friends sometimes. you have to balance "well they deserve to know" with "itll bring them SO down". anyways.
! To star in a sitcom: haha yes. id have fun. :-)
! For Batman or Superman to save your life: hooray.
! That you could do the polka: uh.
! To beat an orange to a pulp: nooo
! That you could play an instrument(which one): guitar.
Random Questions. Or the Final stretch...
$ Do you watch Animal Planet regularly: nope
$ When was the last time you smelled your socks: years.
$ What day do you wish it was: Thursday. Definitely.
$ If there was a man standing on your toilet, what would you say: id call 911. there definitely SHOULDNT be a random man standing on my toilet in my house. ack.
$ What question would you add to this survey: who knows
$ How many dimes in $23.65: 236 and a nickel. whoo hooo
$ When will you grow up: "in this diary", the ataris- "being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up/ these are the best days of our lives/ the only thing that matters is just following your heart/ and eventually youll finally get it right". and i couldnt agree more.
$ How much would it cost for a new haircut: who knows. mom's money.
$ When was your last haircut: i dont know. it was like a quarter inch of hair so i didnt notice.
$ Are you always this bored: haha. often yep.
$ What are your thoughts on crying: laughter through tears is beautiful. crying is awful but you gotta do it. and you should.
$ The perfect vacation would be: a beautiful thing.
$ Did you know Ms. Cleo was a fraud: what now?
$ How about those Jamaican accents: fooray.
$ Why didn't you show up last night: i was having too much fun...being...bored...at...home...?
$ What is the best thing you could ever do: love life. which i do my best to do.
$ How many questions were on this survey: theyre not numbered, idiot
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[x]I hurt: my thumb a couple weeks ago.
[x]I love: feeling good.
[x]I hate: being excluded, having to fight, being unhappy when you know you shouldnt be, making huge deals in my mind and not being able to fix it when i know i should.
[x]I cry: quite a bit actually. when im happy and when im sad and when im stressed and when im not and...
[x]I fear: bugs, rape, and dying and feeling worthless.
[x]I hope: -
[x]I feel alone: when I let myself.
[x]I kill: bugs. :-)
[x]I talk: as nancy once said on a survey i sent her..."What's one of my bad traits?"- "You talk."..."What's one of my good traits?"-"You talk about good things". so. :-)
[x]I listen: when I stop talking. and when it feels like my friends really need me to, I try my absolute best.
[x]I see: the computer screen, and my im windows.
[x]I smell: nothing.
[x]I taste: water.
[x]I work: to find happiness.
[x]I remember: that I am lucky for all I've got.
[x]I hold: nothing right now.
[x]I hide: the parts of myself I don't think anyone could ever like.
[x]I pray: less than I should.
[x]I walk: with my friends. to think. to be healthier. on the beach. in my yard. around the quad with laur. from class to class. to the PDS playground. far away.
[x]I write: to get my feelings out.
[x]I was: different.
[x]I breathe: air. and pollen.
[x]I play: the piano. a board game with my little sister. pretend.
[x]I miss: just guess. :-)
[x]I touch: the keyboard.
[x]I learn: through experience. or rather, I should. But I make the same stupid mistakes over and over again, and...it's life.
[x]I feel: like watching a movie or eating some pizza or calling a friend.
[x]I know: nothing but what I am and what you let me know.
[x]I said: only half of what I meant.
[x]I dream: "don't dream it's over". a lot. every night.
[x]I have: a lot of flaws. a good life. a lot to be thankful for. awesome friends. pizza waiting for me downstairs.
[x]I want: "It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got."
[x]I fell: out of my chair laughing the other day.
[x]I wait: until the last minute to do my homework.
[x]I need: other people. I shouldn't, and I try not to, but I do.
[x]I live: every day. or try to. life.
[x]I die: I want to die happy. I want to die trying. I want to die and know it's all been worth it.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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I've been waiting the longest time
For this moment to
Come alive
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Just had to say I owe two thank-you's to two of the Laurens.
A thanks to lauren {ross} for knowing when rough week starts lol.
and a thanks to laur {valentino} for helping me not stress over it.
my head always knows its not a big deal but the rest of me has a tendency to go crazy.
Chill.
Thank you, schizo girl.
~~always~-*tess*
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Well, it's official.
My parents make absolutely no sense.
They have double standards, and their rules are retarded, and they really need to face the real world, which is that if I was going to be a "bad kid", and if I were going to make "bad decisions", I would've done it by now.
For goodness's sake.
Does nobody believe me?
~~always~-*tess*
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Here's the update on today:
I talked on the phone with guess who until 3:15 this morning, and then went to bed. woke up 3 hours and 15 mins later to go to church. came back around 9 and slept almost till 1. came in here, did my survey, talked to laur, ate bagels, went out to tan (and actually did, a little bit!), and now i'm on the phone with laur.
was going to go over there for dinner but apparently, sunday's family night.
dontcha just love it when your parents invent rules on the spur of the moment?
so yeah. hope your day was good. ill screw around tonight and i really really wanna watch a random feel-good movie. so it all works out.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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~Another Random Survey~
Having a survey to fill out occupies my time and pleases me greatly.
Fooray.
Also, call me.
OH and gracias to lauren - ismene :-) - for this one.
My answers aren't in order, in the top 3 things, so...
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. regrets/dying without ever having lived (those are honestly just one)
2. rape
3. bugs
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. mrs anliker
2. laur
3. chris
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. sunshine
2. awesome music and lyrics that "say it all"
3. i'll copy lauren and say the truth- most likely, YOU.
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. feeling inadequate and/or worthless
2. grades
3. being negative, stressed, or clammy.
THEREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. my parents and their rules
2. myself
3. sometimes, anything at all.
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1. waterbottle
2. phone
3. cd player
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. talking to my annoying neighbor-friend who won't leave me alone
2. listening to Sixpence None The Richer- Don't Dream It's Over, which, by the way, you should download.
3. trying to figure out if and possibly how to cut my hair
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. raise kids
2. meet my cousins/go to Colombia
3. be 5'6" ;-)
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. talk on the phone for extended periods of time
2. talk on the phone while doing my homework, tanning, listening to music, watching tv, talking to other people on another line on the phone, avoiding my parents, changing clothes, brushing my hair...i'm a talented girl
3. smile
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. bubbly :-)
2. self-centered (i'm sorry. i'm working on it.)
3. affectionate
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
1. between 5'5" and 5'6"
2. long brown hair
3. brown eyes
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. drive
2. in nancy's words, "chill"
3. eat as healthy as i should
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. the laughter of someone you care about laughing
2. "In This Diary", The Ataris
3. "Don't Dream It's Over", Sixpence None The Richer
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
this name has been edited, by me. so there. :-)
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD HAVE TO LISTEN TO EVER:
1. people you love crying or screaming from pain or grief
2. anything you don't want to listen to
3. when someone drags their nails across the chalkboard
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. "haha"
2. "ack"
3. "i"
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. spaghetti
2. chocolate chip cookie dough. yummy.
3. mushrooms
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. yes, how to totally not care what others think.
2. how to not let the little things get to me and consume all my thoughts even when i know they don't matter
3. true patience.
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. water
2. lemonade
3. milk
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1. yes, Barney
2. the one with Lamb Chop and Hush Puppy and "the song that never ends"
3. the My Little Pony show
1. Spell your first name backwards - aseret
2. Are you homosexual - no
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet - a little silver pouch from sephora with a star zipper and little stars in it. hooray.
[ x ] Hairbrush - red backs with my sister's hair caught in them :-p, the natural hair type brush part
[ x ] Toothbrush - pink and clear
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - when im at home alone, nothing, but when i go out, usually earrings, at least two rings, a bracelet, sometimes my watch, necklace, anklet, toe ring...
[ x ] Pillow cover - pink
[ x ] Blanket - big blue and red and white plaid quilt that makes me think of my Abita
[ x ] Coffee cup - dont have one
[ x ] Sunglasses - got em at mall of georgia...brownish and goldish rims...
[ x ] Underwear - tommy hilfiger...plaid ones that i love
[ x ] Favorite shirt - red wet seal one with the butterfly and garden beaded on it
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - sephora violet and anything else i smell like isnt really perfume, its a jumble of b&bw's coconut scent and herbal essences stuff
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - midtown lol
[ x ] Tattoos - none. probably gonna stay that way, too.
[ x ] Piercings - ears.
[ x ] What you are wearing now - gray soffes (sp?), that green 5-7-9 shirt i never wear...lol sci oly chicas...
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - butterscotch candy. yummy.
[ x ] In my head - sixpence none the richer, dont dream its over
[ x ] Wishing - i didnt have the entire ip to do this break.
[ x ] After this - i'm gonna finish my bagels, try to tan, talk to lauren, and watch a walk to remember, possibly.
[ x ] Fetishes - eyes are the windows to the soul. pink bubble gum or bubble gum lip stuff. hooray.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, and for what reason - no. of course not.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - haha. guess.
[ x ] Is next to you - my flip flops
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - pearl harbor, heartbreakers, a walk to remember, how to lose a guy in 10 days...and probably various other chick flicks i can't think of right now.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - everything (except for ipping and classes starting back up)
[ x ] The last thing you ate - bagels.
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of- didnt i already answer? bugs, rape, and dying w/o living
[ x ] Do you like candles - mm hmmm, even though its more deeds's thing.
[ x ] Do you like incense - yes!
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - ew.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - the possibility of it? yes. but true love? probably not.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - buried. in miami or next to my abita, id think.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - not you. i try not to make enemies out of people, but people make enemies out of me, i think.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - i probably...wouldnt.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - haha well i stayed up till 3:15 this morning...and the latest ever is tip 02, until 9:45 with only 20 mins of sleep.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - haha nope.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - thats a good one. dime.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - accck. butterscotch hard candies, white chocolate. yummy.
x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - everything. myself, the people around me, the world, life...
yes. hope you had fun. i did.
call me.
yes, i honestly do mean you, whoever you are.
lots and lots of love
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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wSaturday, April 12, 2003 |
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Fooray for Bongquisha.
And Shaniqua.
But especially Bongquisha.
I love y'all.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
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This is gonna be a long entry, so if you don't care, still read the italics por favor.
Today.
I sat around until 2, trying to get in touch with dd or lauren so we could do something, and it didn't work, so i started getting depressed :-(. But then I took a really long shower and I was going to watch a disney movie so i was in a better mood. But THEN i finally did get in touch with "the deeds", so it was off for bathingsuit shopping.
Bikini season, or in my case, tankini, is most definitely upon us. Not a thing we can do about it either, girls, so ah well...
So we went around looking for suits and it was really frustrating at first but finally we both found stuff we liked in Belk's. She got this blue flowery bikini thats real cute, and I got this pinkish red and blue tankini that i like. the colors are nice, nothing all that special, but its a bathingsuit that doesnt make me want to kill the mirror so its all good. :-)
my mom flipped out about the cost but paid anyway, so it all works out.
ALSO she's agreed to pay half a seasons pass, and thats just a great big FOORAY.
haha you know what i mean.
So she ended up coming home with me, and we went outside and turned on the radio and pretended to tan even though the sun wasnt even shining on us. It was fun though. We just talked, and that's always nice.
Then we came in and ate dinner and now we're gonna chill for a couple hours, and everything is just nice and happiful. Spring break is stretched out ahead of me, and I'm feeling really loved what with having the greatest friends in the entire world and the prospect of getting together with laura and reading stephy's journal.
So I'm just totally happy, and i don't know what else to say except for that everyone should be happy and just let it all go and everything always works out in the end and you don't have to get hung up on the little things and i love my friends so unbelievably much. People have been thanking their friends a lot on their blogs/ljs lately (ie elbs and stephy) so its my turn. Thank you for everything youve given me, and for putting up with me, and for doing your best to be there, and for being so unbelievably wonderful and lovable and fantastic. If you're reading this, you're probably someone worth telling this to. You rock so much.
-and the lyrics say it all, as usual-
When you're all alone,
and you need a light,
someone to guide you through the night,
just remember that I am here,
to hold you close and dry your tears.
And just when you thought you were falling,
but you know I'll always be right there.
When you're all alone,
and you need a friend,
someone to help you to the end,
when you need someone to catch you when you fall,
I'll be there through it all.
Cause just when you thought you were losing,
but you know I'll always be right there.
And I'll be there through the good times,
and the bad,
and we'll be there for each other,
cause you're the best friend I've ever had.
And just when you thought you were falling,
but you know I'll always be right there.
whenever you need me,
I'll always be right there.
i really do mean it, and if you even think about needing someone to listen to this break, i will absolutely be there, you know the number, and if you don't look it up or call someone who does. i know that i am not always the best listener but i just want you to know im here. i really am. and...
Love you all.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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I'm just feeling...fantastic.
Like, seriously, you have no idea.
I didn't know it was possible to be in a mood this great.
THINK ABOUT IT.
It's Saturday morning, and its spring break, and the music's playing nice and loud, and the sun is shining, and there's no worries, and everything is going right for once, and I don't think ANYTHING could bring me down right now, and...just...
ah. yay. wow.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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wFriday, April 11, 2003 |
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Another day...a parabola that just hit its low vertex, i'm thinking...? but it's all good.
so laur and deeds are over and we'll chill for an hour or so before they leave, and i'll have fun.
and it all works out.
fooray.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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wThursday, April 10, 2003 |
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And I say goodnight, and go to sleep, and all I can do is...glow.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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Haha :-)
ChrisV958 [7:48 PM]: im always going to be awesome and wonderful
ChrisV958 [7:48 PM]: so if im not, kick me
ChrisV958 [7:48 PM]: i give you permission, as my abusive girlfriend.
ChrisV958 [7:48 PM]: :)
the day's parabola just keeps getting better
tomorrow is friday
friday is going to equal awesome.
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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~A Beautifully Random Survey~
I will occupy my time instead of sitting here at school feeling blah.
1. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day?: sunny, unlike this crap outside.
2. Do you consider yourself lucky? haha yeah
3. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide?: yes. not because their lives were oh-so-hard, because i do think its selfish, but because they didnt get a chance to live, and they never found their own happiness.
4. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: there isn't one. im like bipolar, only times 100.
5. Do you own any plaid clothing?: ...long story.
6. Do you own Converse shoes?: no ma'am
7. Do you own Saucony shoes?: nope
8. Do you own old school Nikes?: nope
9. Do you wear tight pants? haha own some really tight ones but i dont wear em...and the rest, well theyre not baggy but theyre no christina aguilera tight. haaaa.
10. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: nope
11. Do you own a messenger bag?: call me stupid but huh?
12. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest?: see above?
13. Do you have short, shaggy hair?: haha nooo but i will if the salon people mess up when i get some taken off.
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon?: haha prolly
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat"?: not really
16. Is your hair black or red?: dark brown people. not black. say it with me now. DARK BROWN.
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye?: ha. ha. ha.
18. do you own a bandana?: yep haha.
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears?: um nope
20. Do you enjoy leopard print?: icky.
Habits/beliefs
1. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything)?: no
2. Are you an anarchist?: nope
3. Does the American flag anger you?: i love america. yayyy america. boooo bush. bush sucks. am i off topic?
4. Do you dislike "preps"?: um thats a stupid question.
5. Do you dislike Hot Topic?: haha nora says i must say no, shes sitting here in the media center with me...and no, i dont.
6. Do you smoke cigarettes?: haha nope im a good girl
7. Do you smoke cloves?: nope
8. Are you vegan/vegetarian?: meat=yummy
9. Do you think meat is murder? no. yummy does not equal murder. law of transitivity, see above.
10. Do your nighttime activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting?: haha dont think so.
11. Have you ever slept in an alley or park?: no. i sleep in BEDS. difficult concept, yes i know.
12. Do you wash your hair less than once a week?: ew.
13. Have you ever gone a week without a shower?: nope
14. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor?: haha like the kid next to me in math who smells so awful...and no, i dont think so.
15. Are you a member of the Only Undies Club?: huh?
16. Do you say "rad"?: not usually
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- what facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes
- would you vote for a woman candidate for president? hell yes
- would you marry for money? haha no. marry for love. ya hear me? *words of wisdom*
- do you ever cut or hurt yourself? its a stupid thing to do. seriously.
- when was the last time you had a hickey? thats a never.
- could you live without a computer? yeahhhh
- do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..? duh
- if so, how many people are on your list(s)? i dont know im not at home. if you actually care, you need a life.
- do you drink enough water? who does?!
- do you wear shoes in the house or take them off? i have wonderful old navy fuzzy slippers and theyre warm and happy
- what is your favorite fruit? mm strawberries are pretty but grapes and watermelons are good for eating
- do you eat wheat bread or white? wheat
- what is your favorite place to visit? cape cod. and tip.
- what is the last movie you saw? i dont remember. so it must not be important. i think ill go home and watch walk to remember or shrek or passport to paris and try to clear my head.
- do you kiss on the first date? i havent.
- are you photogenic? ack.
- do you dream in color or black and white? color
- are you wearing fingernail polish? nope
- do you have any dimples? siiigh. nah.
- do you remember being born? should i? did i miss something?
- do you drink alcohol? haha im a good catholic girl. but i guess if the opportunity arose lol.
- did you like or do you like high school? you get to see your friends. anliker is cool. it all works out.
- what is the most beautiful language? espanol, when people who can actually speak it, ie my wonderful abita, do.
When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake? its never happened
- do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? both. sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset...
- do you want to live to be 100? i want to live every day to the fullest. if i get to 85 and i cant do it anymore, then im ready to die.
- do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? i guess
- do you like salty food or sugary food the most? sugary=yummy
- are you tolerant of other people's beliefs? of course. id like to think so.
- when you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? off. otherwise theres a glare on the tv.
- do you have nightmares frequently? no. but i dream a whole bunch.
- do you like your nose?: youve gotta be kidding me.
- do you like abstract art? mostly
- do you think you can draw well? siiiiiigh. i try but i sure as heck cant turn a dolphin into a plane lol.
- do you listen to music daily? hell yeah, the queen of lyrics needs her music
- do you like to watch cartoons? ick
- at what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? i was 10. i cried.
- how many pairs of shoes do you have in your closet? a lot. but i wear like 3. i realy dont like shoes, honestly.
- do you write poetry? you bet
- do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? side.
- would you rather have a poodle or a rotweiler? neither. animals dont like me, as ive said. a poodle though i spose.
- have you ridden in a hot air balloon? no but i bet its fun
- which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? ive never had really really deep pain in either way. except for possibly when abita died. but id bet emotional. theres nowhere to hide and you cant ever get away from it and its just..there.
- do you think balding men should shave their heads? no haha i love my daddy's hair, what there is of it.
- do you know anyone who is clinically depressed? yeah basically
- do you prefer a piano or a violin? piano. i hate mrs richie. ack.
- are you a sex addict? haha. jill would have you think so. i THINK about it all the time... ;-)
- are you basically a happy person? yes. i really do try.
- did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? nope.
- have you ever met anyone off the internet? i dont think so...
- how many phones do you have in your house?: tres
- do you get along with your parents?: haha...sometimes. its really about 60% yeah, 40% no way.
- what color of eyes do you prefer? on myself? im good with my eyes. and on others? im really not big on brown actually. haha im a hypocrite. eyes are great.
- what do you most like about your body? i dont really know. my eyes maybe? ack.
- how many fillings do you have? like 2 or 3 i think.
- do you think you're good looking? not particularly. id like to think im not ugly tho haha.
- do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? some people, sometimes.
- do you look like any celebrities? haha i wish.
love
- are you in a relationship right now? haha yeahhh
- rate it on a scale from 1 to 10: its just...awesome. if youre someone who needs to know more, you probably already do. :-)
- have you ever loved a person so much that it hurt? nah i dont think id let myself, i know you prolly cant help it if you did but its just not healthy.
- how many people do you say 'i love you' to on a daily basis? many. when im in a good mood i love everyone. i love the world. hooray.
- ladies, do you like to wear thongs?: what on earth does that have to do with love, exactly?
- if so why?: yeah, see above and mind your own business
- boxers or briefs? for a guy, im guessing? boxers.
- are ladies boxers attractive? whatever floats your boat
- what is the nicest color for underwear? plaid boxers. woo hoo.
religion
- if you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant? of course not
- if you were in a hostage situation, and you were given a choice, to either praise the demon they follow or die, what would you choose? oh i dont know. thats really scary.
- do you detest homosexuality? of course not. homophobes are selfish prejudiced people who really need to figure out why on earth theyre so messed up that they have to categorize an entire group of people like that.
- do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children? agree. do what you want to.
-do you agree or disagree with abortion? the pro-choice catholic chick. right here baby. :-)
wow this random survey has cleared my head. im feeling a lot better.
its the little things
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
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i guess nothing really important actually happened today but my head is full of thoughts and i don't know what to do with them...
you know what's sad?
that i let myself do this, and that i don't just stop and...be. and that i can't seem to control it, or talk to anyone who can actually help, or keep it to myself when it comes to the people who can't. and that i won't just sort it out in my head, and that i freak out, and that i overanalyze, and that i'm ... doing this to myself.
And even though I know it's just me, and my head, and my confusion...I still wonder, and doubt, and am uncertain.
And it doesn't make an ounce of sense.
And I can't even explain to you what I really mean because...I know you'd probably actually be able to help. But it's such a risk, and I don't know how to go on, and all I can do is sit here at school, and wait for my mom, and try to figure out what's going on, and feel lonely, and feel helpless, and hope that things will get better.
And think about how incredibly stupid you're going to think this whole entire post is.
~~always~-*tess*
posted by
Teresa at 2:40 PM
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wWednesday, April 09, 2003 |
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Today was a good day.
drama- me and lauren did our skit. i wasnt loud enough. ah well. chris says i need to use my diaphragm more. let's play guess who teresa's on the phone with. yay says chris.
ff- nothing of importance, i guess, because i dont remember it...except i got a note from chris. chris says yay.
lunch- we were going to be silent but then we werent. chris kept taking my notes, so he says. which he did. yeah.
bio- we had an easy quiz/quest. i really hate horowitz. as in more every day. but it all works out.
elp- a big thanks to loudmouth charlie. and yes i know my face was the same color as my shirt. we watched a biography on sam walton.
after school- i went to ip with chris and i am at seven cards. eight to go. i have no time. we all know whose fault that is ;-)...piano was easy, i brought up father gober and the goose and got mrs richie distracted. went to salsaritas. went shopping. new pants and top. mom's money. hooray! went to dairy queen for a marshmallow shake. came home. called chris.
Chris says hello.
wow
i laugh at myself.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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wTuesday, April 08, 2003 |
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hooray!
1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER? bringing down the house (with nancy!)
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? heart of darkness i guess :-(
4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE? ym and seventeen and teen people. i be stereotypical teenage girl.
5. FAVORITE SMELLS? coconut, vanilla, brownies cooking, ... haha yeah.
6. COMFORT FOOD? butterscotch hard candies and luden's cherry throat drops
7. FAVORITE SOUNDS? my favorite music. the aol one when i'm knowing someone awesome just imd me. zoe barking (never thought ya'd hear that, didja deeds?!). laughter.
8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? regretting something and knowing you'll never be able to change it, and it really is all your fault.
9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? sex of course ;-)...no really, um...it depends what day of the week it is. and what happened the day before. and how wonderful im feeling.
10. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE? subway. mmm mmm good. (and yes, i know thats sposed to be campbells)
11. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? something spanishy for the girls and a family name for the guys. maria teresa's are always nice. and sophia gabriela. and johns and chads and solons and josephs.
12. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD: buy my mommy a house on cape cod, buy myself a car, buy old navy, and go on a fun trip to somewhere random.
13. DO YOU DRIVE FAST? haha ill get back to you in like a year.
14. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? baby teddy. :-)
15. FAVORITE DRINK? lemonade!
16. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME, I WOULD LOVE TO": sleep more, get to the Y more, and spend more time with y'all. the people i love.
17. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? i spose. i dont really like broccoli.
18. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE? i wouldnt. itd look weird. highlights in a honeyish brown or a reddish or something maybe.
19. HOW MANY DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 2.
20. GLASS HALF EMPTY OR FULL? lately, definitely half full. and in general...yeah. half full.
21. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? basketball and figure skating with my little sister. aw yay.
22. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON Who sent this to you! i got it off elbie's journal. and obviously, shes a sweetheart, and im glad ive gotten to know her lately!, and i love her hair :-)
23. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? the clothes that should be in my drawer.
it's all good.
:-D
~~always~-*Tess*
;-D
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Today was sort of like an icecream sundae, if that makes any sense at all.
With wonderful words of wisdom from Mrs. Odom to top it all off. ;-)
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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wMonday, April 07, 2003 |
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goodnight.
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great day.
tomorrow's a math test :-(
but that's tomorrow.
Bush is sexy.
(He's worse than a box of tic-tacs :-D when it comes to actually leading the country...but he's absolutely sexy.)
Ha ha ha.
And those are my profound words of wisdom for now.
It's off to procrastinate for an hour or so and then actually start my homework :-)
sweet.
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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wSunday, April 06, 2003 |
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Much better.
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i can't remember the last time i was this angry.
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so i find a reason...
each single morning
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in a world full of strangers
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smile made of sun
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it always takes a little help from someone
~~always~-tess
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Teresa at 5:31 PM
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~Summitting~
--"City Love", John Mayer--
So I left from school on Friday, I forgot my cd player at home and was really pissed, but thats life. The ride was long but fun, i was with Mrs. Boley, the best chaperone, and Jamie, he's a sophomore at mp, so i forced them to listen to jewel and we chilled, i fell asleep on the way but ah well, i was tired. see time of previous entry lol. so we ate at pizza hut, went to the hotel for the opening ceremony (aka BS), got settled in our rooms, and chilled for the rest of the evening. The rules were retarded, no guys in girl's rooms and no girls in guy's rooms. Not even if the door was open, not even if there was a chaperone in there too. it was pathetic, we couldnt even play cards or anything until we started taking the chairs out of our rooms and into the hallway, where the guys sat and talked to us- pathetic i know. me and the roomies (liz and vernida) drew straws and i ended up having to share a bed both nights. that sucked.
we woke up early on saturday morning and still managed to miss breakfast...the first session was at 9, the second at 10, the third at 11- the first one was a cumberland county DA and another attorney talking to us about that, the second one was some former teacher bullshitting on the marvelous topic of teamwork in the jury which was crap, and the third one was actually really interesting, it was about drugs and how the juvis get involved in em. then they started talking about ghb and it was really freaky (date rape drug)...but the guy who was speaking was really cool, he made a lot of sense.
so after that was lunch, taylor was all pissed off cuz her tongue ring was sore, we went off to the rooms for a little bit and our mock trial team got ready, then it was back for the freshman youth panel and the trial competition. mecklenburg ended up winning 1st in the comp, the panel was really boring though...after that me, byron, ryan, taylor, liz and jamie went and played ultimate with some random people...i sucked but its all good. then we went back to our rooms and showered, had dinner, and put on our pajamas. just didnt feel like the dance i guess, rebecca and vernida wanted to go but the rest of us had planned to just chill. next thing we know, mrs lochman comes in and says we HAVE to make an appearance, so we're forced to go down to the dance and taylor was really really pissed off. shed wanted a smoke. we were sposed to stay for an hour, but the chaperones went to the bathroom and taylor and i just skipped out. it was pathetic. we went out to the back of the inn and she got her cigarette...we really bonded. some of the stuff she said really made sense. shes been through a lot of shit and i respect her for it. she knows shes made bad decisions but that doesnt change the fact that she has...she knows a lot about life, and she's really awesome. that was probably the highlight of my weekend.
after that byron and ryan came down and got us, and mrs lochman yelled at us and i apologized and pretended i meant it...taylor went for another smoke and we talked some more, then we went to the rooms and ordered chinese even though we werent sposed to...so we got yelled at some more, but taylor took the blame...finally we went to bed.
this morning we went to closing ceremonies and goofed off, then we came home, the car ride back was a lot of fun.
so here i am at lauren's, just chilling, and then ill go home and do some homework and figure out when to go the library this week and...its back to the usual grind.
Keep a good relationship with your parents. If you don't put up with your parents, you've got nothing. Just deal with it all- curfew, and school, and rules, and all of it- for as long as you can. Because once you give it up, you're lost. I had to live on my own with three guys for three fucking months, and people say they can't wait to get out of their houses and be on their own, but they don't know what the hell they're talking about. I smoke, and I work until 2 AM every single day, and I can tell you that when you make bad decisions, the real world is shit. ~Taylor, out by the parking lot
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"My allergies suck, and I'm snotting out my eyeballs, but today's a GREAT day!"~ Spencer in debate
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The most important thing is people you can count on. I have one person in life that I can really count on, and it's Danny. And even though he cheated on me and I thought I'd never be able to trust him again, I know he's there. If I were to call him right now and tell him he needed to come pick me up, he'd be here. He wouldn't think about why, or how, or what my parents would think, or if he might have to drive me straight back up once we got home...he'd just come. And I can't say that about my boyfriend. I can't say it about my best friend. I can't say it about my brother. And I sure as hell can't say it about my parents.~ Taylor
So it's been interesting.
You learn a little and grow a little and think a little
and it's life.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 3:03 PM
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wFriday, April 04, 2003 |
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well i'll be gone summitting for the weekend
email me a bit so i'll feel special when i return?
miamigirl1288@aol.com
you rock.
have a nice couple of days.
See you on Monday.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 12:09 AM
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wThursday, April 03, 2003 |
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cherry cokes underneath this moonlight summer sky
posted by
Teresa at 11:00 PM
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You know what I said about the littlest things making your mood just shoot upwards?
Well, that works both ways.
And I am so unbelievably mad, and frustrated, and pissed off at how amazingly inconsiderate some people can be.
Give me a freaking break.
posted by
Teresa at 9:13 PM
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Laur has promised to call me at 8:30, and help me figure out what to pack for this weekend, but she didn't. And I kind of need to know if she can pick me up on Sunday or not.
DD also promised to call, and didn't, but at least she emailed me.
It was a long, random email.
If I do my math homework now, tomorrow will be a 19.
If I don't, it'll be an 18.
Uck. I am doing a really bad job of being focused this week, and I know it.
I'm not good for myself.
Does that make any sense at all?
~~always~-*Teresa*
;-D
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Teresa at 9:05 PM
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Dancnqueen454 [7:09 PM]: this is what life's really about... bush-bashing.
posted by
Teresa at 7:08 PM
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PRESENTING
Teresa's Day Potential Scale!
Ideally, every day has the potential to be fantastic. But in real life, we all know that sometimes you wake up and just know a day is going to suck. So I've created my wonderful fantastic Day Potential Scale. Use it in the late evening or the next morning to determine exactly how good your day may be. It only works for school days for now, but ah well.
Add up the points to your day as follows:
A-Day: 6 pts
B-Day: 8 pts
Monday: 3
Tuesday: 4
Wednesday: 2
Thursday: 5
Friday: 6
Each test: -3 pts
Quiz: -1
Incomplete homework for a class: -1
Friend who's going to be absent: -1
Substitute: 1
Bio substitute: 6
-Plus one point per hour of sleep, up to 10
-Minus two points per expected hour of homework
-Stress factor: between -3 and +3, +3 being totally carefree, and -3 being the equivalent of exam PLUS cobra to finish
-Happiness factor: relates to the day before, between -2 and +2
-Things to look forward to factor: add maximum 2
-Things to dread: subtract maximum 2
-Random Points (like hwitz's "wow" bs points...): between -3 and +3
So, a perfect day would receive a DAY POTENTIAL SCORE of 40.
This would be a Friday B-Day with a Bio sub, 10 hours of sleep the night before, no homework, tests, or quizzes, no stress whatsoever, a pretty awesome Thursday beforehand, 2 points worth of things to look forward to, and 3 wow points.
A hypothetical AWFUL day would receive a score of -31.
This would be a Wednesday A-Day with a test in every class, no homework done, five friends absent, no sleep the night before, four hours of homework, a crapload of stress, a bad Tuesday before, a bunch of dread, and -3 wow points.
If you find this strange, you're not alone.
Personally, I like knowing what to expect.
Therefore we have: Teresa's Day Potential Scale
Yes, I was bored.
I'm off to phone and snacking.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 4:40 PM
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wWednesday, April 02, 2003 |
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I'm spinning by the place that I met you
for the 97th time
tonight
~~always~-*tess*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 7:19 PM
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wTuesday, April 01, 2003 |
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Chris is the coolest.
~~always~-*teresa*
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 8:29 PM
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It's amazing how sometimes, the exact thing that you needed to happen...does.
Especially when you didn't even know what it was.
For example, I don't have Teen Court.
Which I didn't really know would make me feel so great...but...
James Taylor and home alone for 3 hours and A Walk To Remember and sunshine and...just...
ah.
Yay.
~~always~-teresa
;-D
posted by
Teresa at 5:02 PM
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